This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Well have come to bring the sword
Quivering lips, do I blow the horn
To everything we could be and more
If I stand and lock or open the door
Is that wind blowing through the tops of trees?
Are the cars humming through the street?
The moment passes right through me
And the past is the only thing I see.
I wrestle with God all night long in my head,
And as hard as I try I cant forget what Jesus said.
Im grinding my teeth all night long in my head,
And my nerves are shattered again and again and again.
Sometimes at night on dark highways
I pull the car over and listen for trains
With my hair blown out the window pane
I rise voice, I scream and say;
".. I struggle with all the energy
That is powerfully inspired within me
With this I toil, for this I breathe,
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I wrestle with God all night long in my head,
And as hard as I try I cant forget what Jesus said.
Im grinding my teeth all night long in my head,
And my nerves are shattered again and again and again.
I wish I knew
Yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah
I wish I knew.
If you want me
Please come and find me
Cuz Ill be running
You know how Ill be running
Quivering lips, do I blow the horn
To everything we could be and more
If I stand and lock or open the door
Is that wind blowing through the tops of trees?
Are the cars humming through the street?
The moment passes right through me
And the past is the only thing I see.
I wrestle with God all night long in my head,
And as hard as I try I cant forget what Jesus said.
Im grinding my teeth all night long in my head,
And my nerves are shattered again and again and again.
Sometimes at night on dark highways
I pull the car over and listen for trains
With my hair blown out the window pane
I rise voice, I scream and say;
".. I struggle with all the energy
That is powerfully inspired within me
With this I toil, for this I breathe,
[]
I wrestle with God all night long in my head,
And as hard as I try I cant forget what Jesus said.
Im grinding my teeth all night long in my head,
And my nerves are shattered again and again and again.
I wish I knew
Yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah
I wish I knew.
If you want me
Please come and find me
Cuz Ill be running
You know how Ill be running
Lyrics submitted by geesecantdance
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It sounds like a man who is struggling with faith.