This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I don’t keep a journal
cos I don’t have to write it down
To remember how I felt
Those day I couldn’t wipe the smile away
And I don’t take pictures
But maybe I should start
Cos my old friends have all become a blur
Just one giant happy face
I wish I’d have know
They’d break me in half
If given half a chance
And one nigh alone
Can be murder
On my confidence
Waking up late or
Not waking up at all
My alarm clock still holds a grudge
from the time I threw it at the wall
And everyone’s shifty
And everyone’s a con
But it’s the ones who’ve got nothing to sell
Make me the most uncomfortable
And all the best things I do
They happen by accident
And I don’t want to be
Part of this game
And I guess
That makes me blessed
Or cursed
But it’s all the same
And I won’t star in my movie
Because I can’t remember my lines
I thought I was a real scene-stealer
But the academy won’t know my name
Come award time
Spoken like a selfish
And egocentric prick
And when I think about the things I think
Sometimes
It kind of makes me sick
cos I don’t have to write it down
To remember how I felt
Those day I couldn’t wipe the smile away
And I don’t take pictures
But maybe I should start
Cos my old friends have all become a blur
Just one giant happy face
I wish I’d have know
They’d break me in half
If given half a chance
And one nigh alone
Can be murder
On my confidence
Waking up late or
Not waking up at all
My alarm clock still holds a grudge
from the time I threw it at the wall
And everyone’s shifty
And everyone’s a con
But it’s the ones who’ve got nothing to sell
Make me the most uncomfortable
And all the best things I do
They happen by accident
And I don’t want to be
Part of this game
And I guess
That makes me blessed
Or cursed
But it’s all the same
And I won’t star in my movie
Because I can’t remember my lines
I thought I was a real scene-stealer
But the academy won’t know my name
Come award time
Spoken like a selfish
And egocentric prick
And when I think about the things I think
Sometimes
It kind of makes me sick
Lyrics submitted by roach133
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haha i love this! and i didnt realize the lyrics were here so i just typed them all out eeee