"Fast car" is kind of a continuation of Bruce Springsteen's "Born to Run." It has all the clawing your way to a better life, but in this case the protagonist never makes it with her love; in fact she is dragged back down by him.
There is still an amazing amount of hope and will in the lyrics; and the lyrics themselve rank and easy five. If only music was stronger it would be one of those great radio songs that you hear once a week 20 years after it was released. The imagery is almost tear-jerking ("City lights lay out before us", "Speeds so fast felt like I was drunk"), and the idea of starting from nothing and just driving and working and denigrating yourself for a chance at being just above poverty, then losing in the end is just painful and inspiring at the same time.
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics
'Cause I don't want you to know, where I am
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am won't take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'Cause who I've been only ever made me
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics
'Cause I don't want you to know, where I am
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am won't take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'Cause who I've been only ever made me
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
Lyrics submitted by BrandNew1208, edited by PandasThatFly
Who I Am Hates Who I've Been Lyrics as written by Matthew Thiessen
Lyrics © Capitol CMG Publishing
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