"Deathbed" as written by and Matthew Arnold Thiessen....
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home

The year was nineteen forty one
I was eight years old and
Far far too young
To know that the stories
Of battles and glory
Was a tale a kind mother
Made up for her son
You see
Dad was a traveling preacher
Teaching the words of the Teacher
But mother had sworn
Went off to the war
And died there with honor
Somewhere on a beach there
But he left once to never return
Which taught me that I should unlearn
Whatever I thought a father should be
I abandoned that thought
Like he abandoned me

By forty seven I was fourteen
I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
I smoked until I threw up
Yet I still lit 'em up for thirty more years
Like a machine

So right there you have it
That one filthy habit
Is what got me where I am today

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I'd do again

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home

I got married on my twenty first
Eight months before my wife would give birth
It's easier to be sure you love someone
When her father inquires with the barrel of a gun
The union was far from harmonious
No two people could have been more alone than us
The years would go by and she'd love someone else
And I realized I hadn't been loved yet myself

From there it's your typical spiel
Yeah if life was a highway
I was drunk at the wheel
I was helping the loose ends
All fall apart
Yeah I swear I was destined to fail
And fail from the start

I bowled about six times a week

The bottle of Beam kept the memories from me
Our marriage had taken a seven-ten split
Along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I'd do again

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home

I was so scared of Jesus
But He sought me out
Like the cancer in my lungs
That's killing me now
And I've given up hope
On the days I have left
But I cling to the hope
Of my life in the next
Then Jesus showed up
Said "Before we go"
"I thought that we might reminisce"
"See one night in your life"
"When you turned out the light"
"You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"

You cried wolf
The tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, "What have I done?"
You loved that lamb
With every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite

You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day please take me home with you"

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear You whisper to me,
"It's time to leave
You'll never be lonely again"

But this was my deathbed
I died there alone
When I closed my eyes tonight
You carried me home

I am the Way
Follow Me
And take My hand
And I am the Truth
Embrace Me and you'll understand
And I am the Light
And for Me you'll live again
For I am Love
I am Love
I, I am Love


Lyrics submitted by Tarakoni

"Deathbed" as written by Matthew Thiessen

Lyrics © CAPITOL CHRISTIAN MUSIC GROUP, Universal Music Publishing Group

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  • +2
    General CommentThiessan's best song written to date, hands down

    also the bands best song to date

    Jon Foreman's voice also sounds amazing in his little clip

    i love how it's a full 11 minutes long
    penguin92on February 26, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General CommentI heard this song my first time in pac sun in the mall. It was kinda suprising and I really liked it. I heard the guys at the counter talking about how sad this song is. In the bible, it says we should both mourn and be filled with joy over the death of a believer.
    Laurimon May 21, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Commentthis is such an incredible song
    lowellisdynamiteon January 21, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentHey beau99 my intent is not to be controversial but I would have to say this song is one of the most joyous songs on the album. Most of the song does describe a rather lousy life... but it really doesn't differ from any of our's. The main character may have made the worst of his life but Christ was there at the end to take him home. As humans, we all are the wolf, blood dripping from our fangs. I love how the song describes Christ visiting the man and the only thing they reminisce is the moment he remembers Christ becoming the Savior and Lord of his life. It was the beginning of true significance in this man's life.

    My favorite lines are:

    "I was so scared of Jesus but He sought me out
    Like the cancer in my lungs it's killing me now
    And I've given up hope on the days I have left
    But I cling to the hope of my life in the next"

    I agree this song is incredible.
    pnewon March 05, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentOne of the many questions asked in the JesusFreakHideout.com interview with Matthew Thiessen and John Warne:

    ****

    JesusFreakHideout: "Deathbed" is a truly epic song. What inspired it and what went into the writing process for it?

    Matthiew Thiessen: I started the song with the chorus, the very first part of the song, the "I could smell the death on the sheets" sorta thing. I don't know how that came about, I was just kinda goofing around on the piano one night. And so then I was like, "Where should I go with this? I kind of like it." And I was thinking about writing a song about myself - imagining myself dying. At that point, it wasn't cancer or anything, I was like, "Maybe I'll go through my life and imagine everything," but then I thought, "Y'know, that's kind of weird and it might not be good." So I started making up this fictitious character and that was really fun. I just started having a lot of fun with it. I thought "This'll be cool!" and I'll go through his life and whatnot. And certain parts of this guy's life, I based off family or friends that I knew. Like he ended up getting married on his twenty-first birthday, well my brother got married on his twentieth birthday. And he got divorced, and my brother got divorced. My brother-in-law, his previous marriage ended up getting divorced and he joined a bowling league and bowled seriously every day of the week and ended up bowling two to three hundred games. And that is how he dealt with his divorce and stuff. So it was just a lot of different little things like that. Actually, I had two or three people tell me already that the song is their grandfather to a "T." My old roommate, he's been on our third record and did our hidden track with me, I played him the song - see, I always play him our stuff and he doesn't really like our music, I just wanted to play him that song - and his grandpa died a week before and he was a preacher's son and there are all these coincidences with it, it was really weird. He was like, "Dude, that's crazy! I didn't tell you my grandpa died!" I had no idea.

    ****

    For the whole interview, check jesusfreakhideout.com/interviews/…

    Does that answer your question, beginerbassist08?
    Tarakonion March 17, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is one of the most amazing song I've ever heard. I've never felt so scared of death until I heard the beginning of the song, but the end really comforts me. Jon Foreman's solo is amazing.
    Benjamin328on March 31, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song makes me cry almost every time. It makes me think about my dad in some ways, who is still alive, but he's had a rough life. It also reminds me of parts of my life when I feel I'll never amount to anything or that I've done so much wrong, nothing good can come from me. But God will never abandon me at at the end of everything, he'll take me home. The song is a message of hope:
    "And I've given up hope on the days I have left
    But I cling to the hope of my life in the next"

    Easily: best relient k song ever, and that's saying a lot, because every song is amazing

    thanks matt thiessen
    knhutcon May 12, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI haven't heard this song yet.
    But, I was reading an album review for their 'Four Score And Seven Years Ago' album and they said [in the article] that this song was written from the point of view of a cancer patient.
    It seems like a really awesome song. I suppose we'll have to wait for the cd release on March 6 to find out more, though. =D
    WishingForYouon January 21, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commentthis song is SO INCREDIBLY AWESOME!! the perfect closer for their album. rock on relient k!
    woyloyboogon January 23, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentRelient K has never failed to amaze me.

    This is now officially the saddest song ever written.
    beau99on January 25, 2007   Link

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