This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
how can I fail
again I swear i'll let you down
how can I fail
again I swear
you'll feel the craze
smiles and blades
source of confusion
plucking away
this is the union
this the day
this is the answer
this is the game
try (try)
my (my)
death through the failure thats breakin me outta my
life (life)
I (I)
cry (cry)
how can I fail (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear I'll let you down? (anything and everything at all)
how can I fail? (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear
i'm falling down
down in this
hole
taking it's
time
taking it's
toll
closing the
casket
digging the
grave
better to
die
than live like a
slave
lie (lie)
I (I)
fell from the mirrors reflection that burns through my
eyes (eyes)
I (I)
cry (cry)
how can I fail (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear i'll let you down (anything and everything at all)
how can I fail? (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear
i'll let you down
I can feel the ugliness
within the sickness
crawling in my skin
it's reconstructing me again
this life
this ugliness
no way to escape from the silence
that takes me
over and burns me alive
it's suffering
that I cant wait (suffering)
that I can't wait to die
how can I fail (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear i'll let you down (anything and everything at all)
how can I fail? (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear
it's time to die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
again I swear i'll let you down
how can I fail
again I swear
you'll feel the craze
smiles and blades
source of confusion
plucking away
this is the union
this the day
this is the answer
this is the game
try (try)
my (my)
death through the failure thats breakin me outta my
life (life)
I (I)
cry (cry)
how can I fail (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear I'll let you down? (anything and everything at all)
how can I fail? (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear
i'm falling down
down in this
hole
taking it's
time
taking it's
toll
closing the
casket
digging the
grave
better to
die
than live like a
slave
lie (lie)
I (I)
fell from the mirrors reflection that burns through my
eyes (eyes)
I (I)
cry (cry)
how can I fail (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear i'll let you down (anything and everything at all)
how can I fail? (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear
i'll let you down
I can feel the ugliness
within the sickness
crawling in my skin
it's reconstructing me again
this life
this ugliness
no way to escape from the silence
that takes me
over and burns me alive
it's suffering
that I cant wait (suffering)
that I can't wait to die
how can I fail (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear i'll let you down (anything and everything at all)
how can I fail? (anything and everything inside of me that I cant reach)
again I swear
it's time to die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
fuck you and die
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