This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I never want to see you in the raw and searing flesh
I don't ever want to hear you singing softly to the dead
I never want to feel your skin running warm along my side
I don't ever want to sink that way again
It would be easier to die
To die...
I'm tending the pyres of my frustrations
Burning leaves on buried dreams
Kneeling in to rake the ashes
I'm embering...you're smoldered out
My hands are free, my lungs are proud
Your forgiveness is a fading fiction
Your forgiveness is a fading fiction
These flames have never burned so high
I won't be staring in your eyes
I'm trying hard not to remember
The way the smoke drifts through the air
We'll all be dead come November
Four months out of every year
Every year...
I won't be staring in your eyes
I won't be staring in your eyes
In your eyes...
In your eyes, every year
In your eyes, every year...
I don't ever want to hear you singing softly to the dead
I never want to feel your skin running warm along my side
I don't ever want to sink that way again
It would be easier to die
To die...
I'm tending the pyres of my frustrations
Burning leaves on buried dreams
Kneeling in to rake the ashes
I'm embering...you're smoldered out
My hands are free, my lungs are proud
Your forgiveness is a fading fiction
Your forgiveness is a fading fiction
These flames have never burned so high
I won't be staring in your eyes
I'm trying hard not to remember
The way the smoke drifts through the air
We'll all be dead come November
Four months out of every year
Every year...
I won't be staring in your eyes
I won't be staring in your eyes
In your eyes...
In your eyes, every year
In your eyes, every year...
Lyrics submitted by X405pastmidnight
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the Arm's ability to rock so fucking hard AND write wrenching , poetic lyrics amazes me. punk poetry my friends, the best of kinds. one of my favorites on Greatest Story. oh and basic, that is really touching about your uncle. funny how things line up in life
Since no one has posted to this song, I get to be the first. I just have to say that I love this song each time i hear it. it really grows on me.
sure it's a love song, but it reminds me of my uncle who passed away the day after thanksgiving (in november). i lived with him for ~4 months that year over the summer. we were planning on doing it again the next summer, having me live there again, but i cant spend that 4 months with him anymore. the verse about smoking 'tending the pyres of my frustrations' is in a sense how some of the family has dealt with the unexpected passing of my uncle, smoking. it's sad in a sense that it hits so close to home without even trying to. a beautiful song.
Read Bulgakov's Master and Margarita.
This is losely based off of that book and deals with the Devil. Also, the line about being dead in Novemeber is a reference to winters in Russia. They are deadly cold for four months, starting in November.
Indeed it does. The flames are a reference to the Master's novel. The forgiveness:
"They do not deserve the Light. They deserve peace."
Indeed it does. The flames are a reference to the Master's novel. The forgiveness:
"They do not deserve the Light. They deserve peace."
I always thought this song was more or less about loving someone so much that you didn't want to compromise what you had with them by intimate relations. I guess I suck.
read the book n you'll get it more joe