So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I can't exist anymore
Till I destroy you
I'm hating everyone
Don't know what to do
Ingesting flesh and bone
Makes me a cannibal
Or am I criminal
I feel so horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Sucking on colorforms
Becoming see through
Still hating everyone
As I digest you
I do not feel wrong
Am I incurable
Or am I criminal
I'm so damn horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
I will ingest you
So to protect you
Then they can't take you
Away from me
I will ingest you
So I can protect you
Then they can't take you
Away from me
Fade into yesterday
Searching for my youth
Try to detest it all
Searching for the truth
Self-centered devil spawn
This makes me durable
Or am I criminal
I feel so horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Till I destroy you
I'm hating everyone
Don't know what to do
Ingesting flesh and bone
Makes me a cannibal
Or am I criminal
I feel so horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Sucking on colorforms
Becoming see through
Still hating everyone
As I digest you
I do not feel wrong
Am I incurable
Or am I criminal
I'm so damn horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
I will ingest you
So to protect you
Then they can't take you
Away from me
I will ingest you
So I can protect you
Then they can't take you
Away from me
Fade into yesterday
Searching for my youth
Try to detest it all
Searching for the truth
Self-centered devil spawn
This makes me durable
Or am I criminal
I feel so horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Lyrics submitted by Catatonik
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I think you guys are skipping the symbolism....i can relate this very easily to how everyone at my school hates me and thinks that im horrible...when im not. But then it gets perpetuated because they think so...