When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists
that everything you once held dear is taken away from you

When I am queen sweet girlscout's face and not a one will fall from grace
If all their hearts I could replace, but until then I'll have to...

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown

When I am queen on royal thrown made out of parts of broken bones
of all the devils I have known that suck the angels dry

When I am queen I'll have my way I'll make it drowning dollie day
and all the tears that we have cried will suck back in our eyes

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown

Hush baby hush baby
Hush baby go to sleep
Hush baby hush baby
Hush baby I'll make it be

When I am queen I will not wait my body type will still be great
I will not leave it up to fate because I hate you too

When I am queen they all will see the patron saint of self-injury
the glitter sores will heal themselves I'll play the part of someone else

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown


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    I think this is a sad as wella s angry song. It's about the fact that she wants revenge for all the wrongdoings and also the fact that she can't have it. Not right now and probably not ever "until then i'll have to drown drown drown myself' The screaming parts are all the anger at the fact that what she believes is rightful revenge will naver happen and she's stuck in a vicious cycle of having bad done to her and everyone else and not ebign able to do anything about it. It's also, i think, about how power can corrupt. When i am queen - when i am all powerful. theres all these grusome things she's talking about in a calm and un-emotional way. when she's screaming about how shes trapped down with no power, there is emotion and she hasnt been corrupted by power. feel free to dissagree with me :) -roz-
    jennythebondagecaton June 17, 2002   Link
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    She says that if she gets her way, those who deserve pain will feel it, and those who have been wronged will have justice. That, and the song rocks.
    OmegaCMon December 12, 2001   Link
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    Saying the song rocks is a painful understatement...it is simply brilliant. Pure and raw and unrefined beauty, thrown into an angst-filled and needful song.
    FilthSkinon April 15, 2002   Link
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    i think shes saying that although she doesn't like herself that much "drown drown myself.." she dislikes the people the song is about more....and that they will be punished when she is queen....also shes saying the other people they've hurt she will heal "patron saint of self injury patron saint of self-injury the glitter sores will heal themselves I'll play the part of someone else" thats a really dark line for me....because shes saying she'll be some one else and it'll be ok...and i know what that feels like. brilliant song....i can relate alot...xxxxx
    sKeMo_kidon May 01, 2002   Link
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    i like the bit where she hoes'hush baby hush baby', because, there is everything else happining, and she thinking about everything bad, but shes trying to calm you at the same time...
    Flickon May 14, 2002   Link
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    i think jack off jill is a kick ass band and this song is one of the best!!!!!!!!! someone with total control over someone is the best person i can relate to. i am one who controls not follows...........
    JACK¦off¦JILLon May 18, 2002   Link
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    I like Faust ... they make me giggle.
    PardonMeMrPunkron May 27, 2002   Link
  • 0
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    I like Faust ... they make me giggle.
    PardonMeMrPunkron May 27, 2002   Link
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    I think it means that not only does she hate herself, she still feels that she has to have revenge on the ones who have made people cry, and who have made others feel of unimportance. Jack off Jill is such an awesome band. This and Strawberry Gashes are my favorite songs from them
    Kittie Katon May 28, 2002   Link
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    I agree with Kittie Kat.. i think that jessicka is telling her revenge in this song and how those that made her suffer will pay. This song and just about ALL JoJ songs are my favorite..Its kinda hard to pick...*grins*
    DestroyedAngelon June 13, 2002   Link

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