Matt Shadows their lead singer says the song was written as per request from the developers of Call of Duty: Black Ops 4. Watching the initial trailers for the game & looking at production sketches reminded him of the 'S-Town' podcast & its main protagonist, John B. McLemore. Matt also comments specifically on the lyrics: "I decided that the lyrics would shadow McLemore's life." In 2012, antiquarian horologist John B. McLemore sent an email to the staff of the show 'This American Life' asking them to investigate an alleged murder in his hometown of Woodstock, Alabama, a place McLemore claimed to despise. After a year of exchanging emails & several months of conversation with McLemore, producer Brian Reed traveled to Woodstock to investigate. Reed investigated the crime & eventually found that no such murder took place, though he struck up a friendship with the depressed but colorful character of McLemore. He recorded conversations with McLemore & other people in Woodstock. McLemore killed himself by drinking potassium cyanide on June 22, 2015 while the podcast was still in production. In the narrative of the podcast, this occurs at the end of the second episode; subsequent episodes deal with the fallout from McLemore's death while exploring more of McLemore's life & character.
You say that I try to hard
That I'm overbearing
You say I'm way too obsessed
I say I'm just caring
(Chorus)
Cause I'm gonna keep on trying
And you're gonna bring me down
And I'm gonna keep on buying
Into the games that bring me down (repeat)
Now you've got a restraining order
And your brother kicked my ass
But as long as I'm still breathing
I'm gonna make this last
(Chorus)
Cause I'm gonna keep on trying
And you're gonna bring me down
And I'm gonna keep on buying
Into the games that bring me down (repeat)
You say I'm getting creepy
Because I keep your picture in my room
But if this lasts forever
It would still end too soon and…
(Chorus)
That I'm overbearing
You say I'm way too obsessed
I say I'm just caring
(Chorus)
Cause I'm gonna keep on trying
And you're gonna bring me down
And I'm gonna keep on buying
Into the games that bring me down (repeat)
Now you've got a restraining order
And your brother kicked my ass
But as long as I'm still breathing
I'm gonna make this last
(Chorus)
Cause I'm gonna keep on trying
And you're gonna bring me down
And I'm gonna keep on buying
Into the games that bring me down (repeat)
You say I'm getting creepy
Because I keep your picture in my room
But if this lasts forever
It would still end too soon and…
(Chorus)
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