Sickman

Layne obviously knew he was going to eventually die from his herroin addiction and he is saying he doesn't even care because of the horrible world he lives in.

I think that the song was trying to say that he wanted to be clean before he died "I won't rest until my head is clear" but then he seems to change his mind and describe how it doesn't matter because the worlds messed up, so it doesn't matter that he is.

Takes a couple listens to get used to, but a great song after that. The lyrics tell of how the world is a place you wouldn't want to live in, so it doesn't matter too much if you live or die ("what's the difference, I'll die/ In this sick world of mine"). It's obvious that drugs inspired this song.

:( It's about him wanting to get better then not after all seeing anything worth getting better for.

a very self-loathing song...the lyrics talk about not caring about dying soon because they hate the world anyways, while he deals with his heroin addiction, like he's in some kind of daze (i can feel the wheel but i can't steer), he doesn't have a strong hold on his life...how sad

Live version of this is insane. If someone dug through to hell, that's what it would sound like. In a good way. It's beyond creepy.

I think it might be an altered Bible quote or something. Never remembered all those Psalms, not like I care anyway.

Yeah, this is pretty obvious yet so moving; he worries about his drug addiction, then realizes death will get him either way, so he doesn't care anymore.

Fricking sad that it turned out that way...

This has to be one of the best songs of all time: this is almost an opera of some sort.

To me this song is all about the struggle he's facing with Heroin.

The song tempo changes from when he's sober and suffering, to when he's high, mellow and doesn't care...

"What the hell am I? Thousand eyes, a fly; Lucky then I'd be; In one day deceased" Means that he's suffering and in pain, and lucky if he died...

"I can feel the wheel, but I can't steer;When my thoughts become my biggest fear; Ah, what's the difference, I'll die; In this sick world of mine" Means he's out of control when he's high, but what does it matter, because he'll die because addiction

"What the hell am I? Leper from inside. Inside wall of peace. Dirty and diseased" Means that he is sober and suffering and feeling like a leper, dirty and diseased...

"Can you see the end? Choke on me my friend. Must to drown these thoughts. Purity over rot" Means he's contemplating death, and then thinking that he has to stop thinking like that and pray for help...

"Yeah, though I walk through the valley of rape and despair. With head high and eyes alert. I tread on a plane of many. We who are of good nature and intention, But cannot touch on the dark. Recesses of memory And pain learned, so come walk With me, feel the pain, And release it..." To me this is like the heroin users prayer, and basically why they recruit friends to use with them...

"What the hell am I? Worn eroded pride. Saddened 10 miles wide. I'm gonna let it slide." Means he's sober, suffering, and his ego is hurt, super depressed, but he's going to let it slide when he gets high...

It's pretty cool how they use the tempo change to make the distinction of what their thoughts are when sober and high... Heroin is some bad shit...

the song is way cool, fell in love with it the moment i heard it, alot with the entire album this song is on.

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as if it mattered.