im ending this journal. idk if a certain person has the link so im ending it. it was a nice ride. for those of you meant to read it i will give u the new link. maybe i will write again

everyone has gone off the deep end. i dont get it. i dont understand it and im fucking pissed. oh and one last thing: im not a problem im your daughter

i think its funny how you think i give a damn

i hate who i am. everything about me i hate. the way i look, the way i act, the way i think. i hate it all. im not confident. im not self assured. im the opposite. im self conscience abotu every aspect of myself.and nobody sees that part of me. i dont let them see that part of me. its someone different from who theyve always known. who they "liked". i put on a front, a fake face with makeup, baggy clothes to hide. its not the way it should be. its never the way it should be. highschool is supposed to be the time of your life. for me its hell. i want it over. i want out of this house. im over it.

i like you. i really like you. im just afraid that if i tell you, and you dont return the feelings, that our friendship will be different and idk if i want to risk that again. and i dont want you to think youre my rebound. that ive moved on too quickly adn am not completly over ass boy. i have some thinking to do. hm

im not usually a very angry person. unless ur my mother. then im always mad at you but you deserve it but you you brought out an anger in me that i never knew existed. even after we're done, after all that shit you did and said, you still have a way of making me angry as all hell. its no wonder they took you away,i jsut wish you didnt come back

ugh. so some things happened. i realized how much of an ass he is. i told him i was willing to wait until things calmed down. that i cared about him that much. the next day he decides to tell me that we're over, he never had any intentions on getting back together, and that that was just his way of being nice. being nice my fucking ass. thats trying to make urself look better. you cant fool me any more. you cant hurt me any more. its over. and im sorry it had to end this way. at one point i really did care for you. i really did love you. but in the end it wasnt worth all the pain. i am not upset over it. i was upset. and then in the end, if you couldnt even tell me the truth then, what was i doing with you to begin with? i was happy for those six months. i really was. we had our moments, sure, but so does everyone. im just mad that when it came down to the last few days, you didnt even have the decency to tell me the truth. its over and i have moved on. im sorry that after everything it ended this way. i really am.

i dont knwo if i can do this again. idk if im willing to risk being hurt that much again. i just dont know

u took a piece of me when u gave up. as it is i wasnt whole, not even close, when we were together. and now im nothing. im reverting back to old habits. old thoughts. i dont wnat to be here. i have nothing. no one. its not worth it.

its over. he didnt even try. i cant fight for our relationship by myself. i cant. and i couldnt. and now its over