had my maths n6 papers today. in all honesty, i thought the non-calculator was easier than the calculator paper. went into town with annette afterwards and left in my application form for argos & annette got one. went to subway and then for smoothies :D we went into bargain books cuz we had some time to kill and i found adam ant's autobiography for 2 quid so i bought it. bargain! also, nikki sixx's heroin diaries is in zavvi for a fiver. must buy it!

went into town today with tasha. bought annette's birthday present - a hello kitty nightdress and hello kitty shower gels. she's gonna love 'em. there were two women outside h&m doing free face painting so tasha sat down and went "surprise me" so the woman done her as a clown. hilarious. me & tasha went to meet leigh outside zavvi til they got their stiff little fingers tickets then tasha ran around lookin' to buy baby wipes to wash the clown off because as she said "no-one ever wants to be friends with a clown" lol! then we went to the hilton because they were having interviews for the odeon cinema which is opening in victoria square. i didn't apply but tasha and leigh did so i waited with them. then me & tasha headed home. my parents are rly annoying. they still aren't talking. i know it's been happening for years and i should be used to it but this is the worst it's ever been...

had my first geography paper today. they had me down for higher! like fuck! anyway, it was awful. i didn't know anything. went into town with annette and tasha. tasha had work at half 4 so me and annette just stayed in town til she got off at 8. annettes granny found out she got her tongue pierced. she was furious. danny thought it was hilarious. there are some bloody freaks in town like. some girl started going "stop, stop, stop" in front of us then she gave us the thumbs up and said "go on" it'd be funny if she was with her mates like but she was on her own lol. annette's having a pregnancy scare. oooooh. we're gonna go to brook tomorrow morning. *fingers crossed* we got application forms for jobs and we're gonna look for more tomorrow :D i bought chuck palahniuk's 'haunted' today. can't wait to read it. i also picked up my photos that i got developed. there's pictures of me from when i was in 2nd year and had blonde hair! how embarrassing.

was woken up by kris texting me saying "your dead for that text you know" haha! ate an egg salad then had a shower & got eva from the busstop. my great aunt maggie has a tumour and apparently they can't operate because they've caught it so late. she was in tears. i can't believe it. she's 74 & has been smoking all her life =/ lulu had an arguement with kris! she was trying to put the blame of them sleeping together on him when she told him that her and pierce were on a break! and then! she said "if sp broke up with helen, broke her heart, and phoned her everytime he wanted sex, wouldn't you judge him? YES" clearly meaning me and kris. i cannot fucking believe her! kris is furious. gonna text him here. night.

just gonna save a list of books i wanna buy. i need £208.90 though... Fight Club Chuck Palahniuk Invisible Monsters Chuck Palahniuk Rant Chuck Palahniuk Survivor Chuck Palahniuk Haunted Chuck Palahniuk Non-fiction Chuck Palahniuk Lullaby Chuck Palahniuk Diary Chuck Palahniuk Snuff Chuck Palahniuk Pygmy Chuck Palahniuk Wasted Marya Hornbacher Girl, Interrupted Susanna Kaysen Rust and Bone Craig Davidson The Contortionist's Handbook Craig Clevenger Dermaphoria Craig Clevenger Girlfriend In A Coma Douglas Coupland American Psycho Bret Easton Ellis Crash J.G. Ballard Chemical Pink Katie Arnoldi The Fuck-Up Arthur Nersesian I Was A Teenage Dominatrix Shawna Kenney Babylon Heights Irvine Welsh & Dean Cavanagh Trainspotting Irvine Welsh The Bedroom Secrets Of The Master Chefs Irvine Welsh Filth Irvine Welsh Crime Irvine Welsh The Beach Alex Garland My Girlfriend Comes To The City And Beats Me Up Stephen Elliott The Man Who Fell In Love With The Moon Tom Spanbauer Kiss Me, Judas Will Christopher Baer The Heroin Diaries Nikki Sixx

i didn't write here yesterday... kris said i could bring my friends boxset up some night he's not working late. that should be fun. mike's movie - the premiere's on the 17th of july and i'm going with him! i'm so excited. it's called 'battle of the bone'. it's semi-formal and everything. can't wait! was talking to my daddy today and he said that a guy in his work is leaving and my dad asked him what he was gonna do now and the guy said that he, his dad and his sister are opening a shop in castlecourt. at this point, i interrupted my dad and said "auntie anne's pretzels!?" and he said yeah. apparently, my dad said to him that i might be interested working there and i just have to apply! :D

it's may so i guess it's too late to make a new year's resolution. maybe this'll just be a resolution - keep my big mouth shut. i can't keep anything a secret. i know it'll be hard to stop but i'm really gonna try. didn't do very much today. downloaded a load of nine inch nails and dropkick murphys ♥ talking to kris right now. we sweeeeet (H)

tasha and i slept through my alarm which went off at 7:30am. luckily, my daddy rang me at 8:20am. we rushed getting ready to get the bus into town at 9:05am. we got the train at half 10 and the man almost charged me for an adult fare! as if i was gonna pay 27 quid. got on the train and i read my book while tasha listened to my ipod. the journey lasted 2 hours but it flew in. dublin was really good. we were only in about 5 minutes and some drunken man laughed at me and tasha and grabbed my shoulder! we found a few really good alternative clothing shops. 'fresh' being the best. i bought a nine inch nails t-shirt & underwear haha. we searched about looking for ann summers for about 20 minutes; no joke, and it was right in front of us the whole time! we got the train back at 10 to 5. i finished my book on the train! less than 24 hours; i am a nerd :) the journey home seemed to last so much longer though. just headed home after and done...well, nothing :D

rachel collected me at half 12 and then her dad left us into town. we met mike, annette & tasha at city hall then dandered about for a bit. tasha took a lime fantazia but it didn't affect her so she took another one and now she's sitting here with a busting headache and feels like she's gonna throw up. subway was funny like. tasha said that she saw 3 dogs wearing hats and hercules doing push-ups o_O nutjob. we all got a train to lisburn at 5ish. i haven't been on a train since i was like, 7 (well, apart from in london)! we met up with jessica and claudio and tasha was made out to be a waster and a weirdo haha. and then jessica made me out to be a slut to claudio! then we fucking missed the last blacks road bus home and we thought we were stranded but we ended up getting a bus into town. today was a bit....tireful. all the travelling and whatnot. bought 'choke' by chuck palahniuk. looks really good. can't wait to start reading it. tasha's half dead on my bed right now haha. i love her 'jeggie testicles'. off to dublin tomorrow!

went into town with tasha today. she was looking for a fred perry polo shirt haha. she was supposed to call at half 12 and she didn't which was rly odd because she's usually the on-time one. anyway, she called at 1 haha. her explanation being "sorry, i died there haha" at half 3, while we were in subway, i texted ash asking if she was still going into town because i was supposed to go in with her. tasha had to go to work at half 4 so i thought 'if ash is still coming in, i may as well stay in and meet her here' but she said she didn't need to go. anyway, got a bus home and got into the house at 5. kris rang me and was all "are you in the house? i was gonna call in on my way back from work but i decided not to" blahblah. anyway, was talking to him on msn afterwards and he asked me to go up to his again so i did. he wanted me to bring 'harold and kumar' up again because he wanted to see if it worked in his dvd player. i brought up pulp fiction and deuce bigalow male gigolo too. just in case. got out of the taxi and saw kris standing at his door talking to carla and naomi and i just thought "oh fuck, naomi and me have a bet. if she sees me going to kris's...." anyway, i walked over and they both just looked at me and were like "right, see ya kris. have fun becca" so i shouted to naomi "i'm gonna win this bet!" and she said "we'll see!" went into his house and we were just having casual chit chat (he told me that his mum thinks i'm a nice girl but she thinks i'm weird because i actually had a conversation with her yesterday haha) then we went into his living room and tried harold & kumar again but it wouldn't bloody work. so then we tried deuce bigalow but it kept skipping. then we went upstairs and just like, lay on his bed. then blahblah we ended up having sex obv. after, kris brought his sister's laptop in and we watched most of deuce bigalow on it and during it he said "what time is it?" and i told him it was 20 to 11 and he put the laptop away. then he just came over to me and kissed me and we were away again haha. holy fuck, that was some good loving like. haven't had sex like that in a while! went downstairs, rang a taxi and discussed 'friends' with him. i told him how amazing it was and that i have the entire 10 series boxset and he agreed to let me make him watch it. he's gonna let me know when he's up for it :D