I like this song a lot. I can't wait to see The Maine in November. Huzzah. Mitch was mad at me today over something stupid. Well maybe it's not stupid to him. He keeps thinking I'm going to dump Charlie I guess, and he keeps comparing this relationship to my past ones. I think that's ridiculous, because they're different things. He told me I need to put an effort in to deal with my commitment issues. Yeah, it's not that easy. Trust me, I've tried countless times before. But anyway, I passed my G1 test and I got a job at Burger King. I know, big step up from Wendy's. Oh well, I can swallow my dignity for money. I have two tests tomorrow. Lame. Stephie and I studied for about 2 hours after school, and I'm still worried. Shoot me.

I remember a time when I expressed interest in an activity and my mom enrolled me into some sort of class. But now, it's like if I want to take a class, like yoga or kickboxing, I have to pay for it. I'm not whining or complaining about it, I'm just wondering when I passed the age where my mom thought it would be a good idea to get me into a class. Do we pass an age where parents think it's ridiculous to spend money on something we could do at home? Are we suddenly not worth the cost? Maybe it's because parents want their children to interact with other kids to develop their social skills. Or maybe it's because she wanted me out of her hair for a bit. It could also be because we have less money now. I don't know, it's just something I was thinking about yesterday. I want to take a hot yoga class, because I've heard it really loosens up your muscles and makes you less stressed. I'd like both, please. I was so shocked that Zui Suicide is on Paris Hilton's My New BFF. Isn't she tight with Audrey? I'll never understand it I guess. I don't really have anything important to say, as per usual, so this is just a good way to avoid studying for my biology test tomorrow. Ughhhh, it's going to suck. I want avocado cucumber rolls so badly. I also want a vest to wear over my Sesame Street shirt. I don't even know why I bought it, but I intend on wearing it. I need to study =[

Today was so excellent, I almost burst. My mom made pancakes for breakfast, which almost never happens, so I knew it would be a good day. School was alright. I ignored Matt (although he talked to me yesterday for God knows what reason, and I hardly said a word. Even if I had intended to have a conversation, he makes it impossible for the other person to get a word in) twice, and my friend Dylan spun me around at lunch. My whole body was horizontal at one point; no joke. Then Kenny surprised me by picking me up beside him when we were walking (he came up behind me and it scared the bejesus out of me at first). It was awesome. Then after school, I went on a date =]. It feels really different this time because Charlie is really mature, smart, a vegetarian, and he actually had the ambition to go get his license. So he has a car =]. It's a whole new experience of dating, and it feels amazing. We went to see The Dark Knight, and oh my god, is that ever a long movie! I don't like Heath Ledger in that role. It just didn't sound like him. I prefer to imagine him as a sexy knight, like in A Knight's Tale. Yum. I can't wait until Thursday =]

Oh today was an excellent day. A fire drill, a white freezie, card tricks, and an hour long conversation with a boy who's actually heard of Backseat Goodbye, not to mention he loves The Spill Canvas. Life is good today. Passed him in the hall and completely looked the other way. Yesterday he tried to start two conversations with me, and I just kinda waved and walked off. I am an excellently horrible person.

You need to fucking back out of this shit. It's none of your concern who I hang out with. I knew you were a crazy bitch the first time I met you. But you just thought I was a sweet little girl. At least one of our opinions stayed the same.

So I've now gone through a whole week of school, and I can say for certain that this year is harder than the last. On Friday, Mitch and I hung out, went to the park, and watched West Side Story. Fun movie, if you like Romeo and Juliet rip-offs, songs sung in New York accents, and really tight pants. The rest of the weekend I did about 8 hours of homework and got new plaid boots. So it was definitely productive... I'm not going to mention him anymore. I'm not going to talk to him anymore. I'm not going to think about him anymore. I'll try not to.

I keep seeing journal entries about how people spent their last days of summer. So how did I spend one of my last days? I made out with a stranger while sort of drunk on a golf course on the night of Christa's cousin's wedding. And lemme just say, what a way to end the summer. I don't regret it, even though Christa blurted it out to her family and they teased me mercilessly all weekend. I tried to be a good sport, but honestly, there's only so much one girl can take. But oh well, I really wanted to have a little fun before I became confined in school for the next 10 months. Today was the first day of school, and it wasn't so bad. It kind of went fast, and for that I am grateful. However, the first day of school always goes by faster than the ones to come, so hopefully it's not like that. I've already done about an hour of homework, which sucks like a vacuum. I was hoping that everyone in my class would have a certain level of maturity considering I'm in all academic classes, but alas, it wasn't so. =[ I can't get over how many idiots are roaming my school, but then again it makes sense since it's very focused on football. All brawn, no brains kinda deal we've got goin' on. Just excellent. I'm done with Matt. It's amazing how he can still get into my head considering I was the one who ended things almost a year ago. But I'm fine without him. I've had conversations all day just fine without him. I knew I knew this already, but I like to repeat it anyways: I don't need him. And I'm not worried.

So I hung out with Mitch today. We played Diddy Kong Racing, watched Weird Al music videos, and went to Subway. Very fun day. This is the result: *ahem* Tears for Sears: For Matt, to his sweet love. Xoxo. (chorus) Ray Raaaayyyyyyy Please won't you stay... I know I've heard you're a good lay I promise I'm not gaaaaaaay No matter what Mitch and Jayme say... My love for you is as thick as my beard It's as predictable as a Clay Aiken song I know that may sound weird I just smoked a bong...while wearing a thong (chorus) Ray Raaaayyyyyyy Please won't you stay... I know I've heard you're a good lay I promise I'm not gaaaaaaay No matter what Mitch and Jayme say... Let's hang out in Sears I know that may sound lame But I am in tears Because I just came (chorus) Ray Raaaayyyyyyy Please won't you stay... I know I've heard you're a good lay I promise I'm not gaaaaaaay No matter what Mitch and Jayme say... Take it to the Bridge y'all! Bridge: I know I have a child with another and Derek is the mother But please give me one last chance And me and you will share our first dance Chorus x2 Haha, and we found the definition for "rustic." Excellent day haha.

I feel like if I don't write an entry about this, I'm going to scream and take out my irritation on the next person I see. I was just watching the video for Panic's Lying Is the Most Fun A girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off, and oh my god, I couldn't believe all the idiots commenting on it. It bothered me when people called the video stupid, merely because they didn't understand it. If you don't understand it, research it, wikipedia it, talk to people about it - do NOT comment about how you love Panic, but "this video is weird and stupid." If you loved them, you wouldn't call something of their's that you didn't understand "weird and stupid." Furthermore, it drove me crazy when people called the band, and their song titles, "random." If you knew anything about the band, you'd know that they get inspiration form movies, other songs, and books, which is often what the titles are quoting. In this certain case, they're quoting the film/play Closer, in which Alice says, "Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off, but it's better if you do." Which is exactly where they got the title for another song. Again, research will give you all the answers. There is no such thing as "random." It's merely a term used when unknowledgeable people are too oblivious to make a connection between two things. Sometimes, I really hate the internet. Anyone who can operate a keyboard can spew all sorts of unintelligible shit in public view. *Sigh* I feel a little bit better now.