so today was pretty alright...really boring though i just found out that my cuzin, a, is coming to to my confirmation...i cant stop smiling, im seriously like crying right now im so happy ahh yall have no idea ne ways gotta blast, in the words of jimmy neutron peace out

so today i had my...hmm lets see....8th dance competition today. we did pretty well. 1st gold and 2nd silver. not bad. also our studio took home the highest scoring pts trophey (4 ft tall, not gonna lie) so that super amazing...yea my dance teacher was proud of us for ONCE, that made me feel super good. school tomorrrow but thats okay cause sunday i get confirmed AND it s my birthday in the same day =] =] happy birthday to me peace out

so yes we had a dance last night yes it was lame yes there was drama yes between miss bff r k me and b (all bc some DUMB ASS in MY group of friends decided to tell her that we wer mad at her bc she was flirting with other guys bc her bf wasnt there....WOW) anyways we worked it out kinda now me miss bff my bro and his friends are going on a super long bike ride =] and im going dress shoppping and i have dance yeaaaa lifes alright right now peace out

1. dances are taken away because of the older kids 2. spirit week was postponed because it "interferes with school" whatever the hell that means 3. they dont think a 22 yr old can coach dance team 4. they dont care about dance team 5. they spend their money on GAY ASS things like computer chairs when the students dont give a shitt and would like to see their teachers stop getting laid off 6. the librarian is evil, retarded, and likes to hear herself talk ENTIRELY too much 7. the principals think they are our parents 8. the food is drop dead nasty 9. u cant have ipods, which we all know the ipod is my life 10. skirts have to be like 10 billion feet long 11. if your tall (like me, not like 6 ft tho) you don't get away with short skirts as easily as shorter girls 12. boys get favored by most teachers 13. our school is poor as well as the whole school district (not the ppl just the school) 14. drama is created out of sheer boredomness ( not by me cuz i HATE drama rawr) 15. people are evil 16. fieldtrips are taken ever so RARELY 17. things get taken away from you because of the grade aheads previous behavior 18. the younger kids think they can stand up to you (yeaaa right) our school is sooo amazing NOOOTTTTTTT yea i cant think of anymore cuz im so angry but im sure theres a whole other list peace out

hmm well today was pretty good, im in a good mood at least but im so sick of all the guys i know....they make fun of me and im just so sick of the same old shitt everyday. 2 wordssss GRRROOWWWWW. UPPPPP. rawr makes me mad ne ways tonight i have dance, and tomorrow we have our 3rd dance of the whole year (yea our dances got pretty much taken away ) so its gonna be lame (no grinding, moshing CLEAVAGE BACK OR SHOULDERS (fuck that) bad behavior etc,) can u say RETARDED yea i think i can about a billion times GRR Jurassic Park is the most hilarious thing ive ever seen in my entire life wow GO WATCH IT right now im just looking into my backyard and it looks like a mystical forest =] its like green and magical and rainy and its gorgeous lol im weird i kno im leaving now peace

soo today was fun =] me n bff were twins, im dying my hair blond (it is kinda brownish blond (mostly natural) right now) and so is miss bff...b's bday was today, me n r got starbux this morning...umm HAD TACO BELL AT LUNCH NEVER tasted sooo good, ummmm aced my spanish test =] =] and am going out for dinner with b tonight to california pizza...can you say ole?!?!? the only bad thing is that my dog smells HORRIBLE so i have to give her (Nina) a bath, and i have to study for a science test tomorrow =[ other than that im babysitting right now and i just practiced singing (yes i love love singing and i have a pretty good voice, not amazing like blow you away, but its nice, ive got no complaints) soo yea thats about all i have to say oh and j the boy is a complete and utter retard and i really strongly dislike him right now STRONGLY (but not hate cuz thats a sin ;-) ) x-ness o-ness

today was actually pretty good for a tuesday. yea normally choir is fcked up cuz our teachers normally fcked up but today he was being soo hilarious. study hall was hilarious as always, harassing people, good times tomrrow im going out for dinner with miss b cuz its her birthday so her families takin me and her to california pizza also for her bday tomorrow her dads bringin us b dubs (sports bar) for lunch im SOOO pumped and its spirit week for school which means tomorrows twin day with miss bff (im pretty sure ...?) yea ww.e ALLLSOOO my parents for my confirmation party are letting me invite six friends (even though it was sposed to be none) and then my bff cuzin is coming and THEN if my aunt is cool she'll come which means she might have a fighting chance of inviting my SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER FAVORITE CUZIN EVER whom i never get to see ( :( ) yeaa so im literally praying for that cuz hes a senior and soon i wont see him at all *teeaarrrr* so yea and THEN my bday they said i could bring SIX FREAKING GIRLS UP TO MY LAKE HOUSE FOR THREE DAYS howwww fcking insane will that be OMG canNOT wait AHHHH peace out

today was actually fun, we got to hear the teachers ramble on about their colleges because it was alumni day...i was amazed at how all of them were encouraging us to party the whole time. yea, right now my fave song is thnks fr th mmrs BEST FREAKING SONG EVER...who knew they were so amazing, well actually i did =] anyways im on the phone with missy.....OMG SHE JUST TOLD ME THAT WARPED TOUR WERE SEEING CIWWAF, ATL, ANNNDDD BLG OMMMGGG ANNNNDDD SHE KNOWS A PERSON WHO WORKS THERE SO WE CAN MEET THEMMMM MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED!!!! OMG i cant even type right now AHHHHHHH

so i'm paranoid basically. i can't help but think that my bff doesnt wanna be my bff anymore. i read her away messages: hanging with some people watching movies....where was my phone call i know that sounds so selfish, but this isnt the first time, its happening a lot though lately i dont know, i can't tell if she is my bff anymore. i'm thinking of asking her possible new/ex bff if shes over me...maybe at school on monday? but what if i don't like the answer, what if i end up being crushed. what do i do? maybe i'm overreacting, maybe i'm blowing this way out of proportion, maybe she just wants to hang out with some other people, maybe i have a feeling that the worst is coming... darling dear, get a grip

so ive kinda regrouped since last nights break down i'm just gonna do life different from now on, i've got all the friends i need, right in my ipod, with the touch of my fingers, i can make my best friend sing to me. thats all i need. i dont need to be caught up in drama, dont need to put my whole heart in things only to get broken, dont need to do anything... ...but trust in music