This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I thought a desires worth any pleasure,
Can never really be a sin in vain
One hundred and one shots of opportunity,
I'd gladly take them all again and again and again
My angel's left me, sorrows are my own
Now I'm here, with the Devil on my own
Just like a churchyard shadow, craving after me
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
I promised on my soul, not to get carried away
It always starts on psychedelic, and then it turns to black
My head starts swaying, I forgot what was that I was saying
I don't know where I am, and I'll never, never make it back
I sealed my fate, and I paid my debt
I fell from grace with deep regret
My angel's left me, sorrows are my own
Now I'm here, with the Devil on my own
Just like a churchyard shadow, craving after me
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
Just like a churchyard shadow, there's nothing left to see
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
My angel's left me, sorrows are my own
Now I'm here, with the Devil on my own
On my own
Just like a churchyard shadow, craving after me
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
Just like a churchyard shadow, there's nothing left to see
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
Just like a churchyard shadow, craving after me
There's nothing left to see, there's nothing left of me
Can never really be a sin in vain
One hundred and one shots of opportunity,
I'd gladly take them all again and again and again
My angel's left me, sorrows are my own
Now I'm here, with the Devil on my own
Just like a churchyard shadow, craving after me
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
I promised on my soul, not to get carried away
It always starts on psychedelic, and then it turns to black
My head starts swaying, I forgot what was that I was saying
I don't know where I am, and I'll never, never make it back
I sealed my fate, and I paid my debt
I fell from grace with deep regret
My angel's left me, sorrows are my own
Now I'm here, with the Devil on my own
Just like a churchyard shadow, craving after me
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
Just like a churchyard shadow, there's nothing left to see
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
My angel's left me, sorrows are my own
Now I'm here, with the Devil on my own
On my own
Just like a churchyard shadow, craving after me
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
Just like a churchyard shadow, there's nothing left to see
It's only there to terrify my mind, a black swan keeps haunting me
Just like a churchyard shadow, craving after me
There's nothing left to see, there's nothing left of me
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