This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Once I got caught in an avalanche,
I must have died,
When a Black Swan flew to the rescue and cried
An offer I could not refuse, now I'm working on the other side.
Well, I flew with the bird then, we flew all night
I got to see my prison from a thousand feet high
Buy me a drink, and I tell you
'Bout the Black Swan
Must keep those black wings folded, until the time is right, to find the one whom I can steal
A soul from, to buy more time
Must keep my secrets untold, until the wrongs are right, the only one I could deceive,
I buy my time, need you to fly on the Black Swan
The date is set, we all must face it
Door to door, seeking salvation
I must, for die I wish not
My hopes stay afloat when you give in to the
Silver lining, sharp and so cold
Anger fades into a vague smile
You see, I'm ready to do it for everyone
I stabbed you in the back, who will save you now
Don't worry, I've done this before
It'll hurt like hell and leave you sore
No use escaping, hold on to your ticket of gold
And close your eyes
One day I know you will sell your soul
And trade all you are for silver and gold
You'll get an odd advice from a stranger
Take it, from me, with love
Once I was in love with someone like you,
Engaged to be whole,
Got torn out of your memories, covered in snow
I need to find a way to pass on the gift I once received
I'm ready to face it
I'll take my chances, if I am
Returning to the deep
Dark snow grave, so be it
I should not rest now but forever!
I'll feed the ferryman's creed.
With an empty promise for my lost soul
Must keep those black wings folded, until the darkest night
I steal a soul from you to buy me some time
Pouring boiling water on a solid frozen flower
Black nailed finger of the creator
I take a bow, thank for this opportunity
But I've given the last ride for all those close to kin
Must keep those black wings folded, until the time is right,
To find the one whom I can steal
A soul from, to buy more time
Must keep my secrets untold, until the wrongs are right,
The only one I could deceive,
I served my time, need you to fly with the Black Swan
I must have died,
When a Black Swan flew to the rescue and cried
An offer I could not refuse, now I'm working on the other side.
Well, I flew with the bird then, we flew all night
I got to see my prison from a thousand feet high
Buy me a drink, and I tell you
'Bout the Black Swan
Must keep those black wings folded, until the time is right, to find the one whom I can steal
A soul from, to buy more time
Must keep my secrets untold, until the wrongs are right, the only one I could deceive,
I buy my time, need you to fly on the Black Swan
The date is set, we all must face it
Door to door, seeking salvation
I must, for die I wish not
My hopes stay afloat when you give in to the
Silver lining, sharp and so cold
Anger fades into a vague smile
You see, I'm ready to do it for everyone
I stabbed you in the back, who will save you now
Don't worry, I've done this before
It'll hurt like hell and leave you sore
No use escaping, hold on to your ticket of gold
And close your eyes
One day I know you will sell your soul
And trade all you are for silver and gold
You'll get an odd advice from a stranger
Take it, from me, with love
Once I was in love with someone like you,
Engaged to be whole,
Got torn out of your memories, covered in snow
I need to find a way to pass on the gift I once received
I'm ready to face it
I'll take my chances, if I am
Returning to the deep
Dark snow grave, so be it
I should not rest now but forever!
I'll feed the ferryman's creed.
With an empty promise for my lost soul
Must keep those black wings folded, until the darkest night
I steal a soul from you to buy me some time
Pouring boiling water on a solid frozen flower
Black nailed finger of the creator
I take a bow, thank for this opportunity
But I've given the last ride for all those close to kin
Must keep those black wings folded, until the time is right,
To find the one whom I can steal
A soul from, to buy more time
Must keep my secrets untold, until the wrongs are right,
The only one I could deceive,
I served my time, need you to fly with the Black Swan
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Drasiana, the "you" in that verse is the "you" who bought him the drink. I'm pretty sure that he (the narrator) became a/the black swan, (Grim Reaper/Cygnus/Whatever), or thinks he did and is now telling this story in a pub somewhere. And the "you" from both of those verses is the "you" from the very last line... who then becomes the black swan.