Another reflection on how the song related to my first romantic relationship:
You never really wanted it
You'll settle for a bit of it
We started with a big bang
And now it's coming back again
He didn't want it at first, but he ended up giving it a try. Things were happening really quickly for us, until they weren't...
Hey, don't you feel it now?
My shiny side down
Hey, burning brighter still
And you're getting sick
And you're feeling it
Once I got to expressing my feelings, he wasn't comfortable and got sick of it all, and so, he kept pulling and pulling away.
It'll wear you down and wear you down
You chase it, breathing in and out and in and out
They'll push you up against the wall, against the wall
You didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong about it
Push
My honesty was getting to be too much for him, wearing him down, yet he kept chasing it until he felt the push. He didn't think he would feel so much, but he was wrong.
It started with a handgun
Loaded with excuses
I started faking it
And then we started breaking it
All the pieces used to fit
Using like it's going out of style
Maybe just a little while
And This will be the last time
Every time's the last time
Excuses, excuses, excuses. He kept bringing them up and since he wasn't taking ownership for his actions, I started acting like I was okay, even though I really, truly, wasn't. That's when things started to break and no longer fit like they used to.
Hey, don't you feel it now?
My shiny side down
Hey, burning brighter still
And you're getting stuck
And you fucked it up
He felt stuck, so he started putting up a wall of boundaries; boundaries that worked for him and him alone. I respected them, but I wasn't happy. And then when I tried to speak up and set a boundary of my own, he wouldn't respect it.
I regreted it
I regret a lot of things
I regreted it
I regret a lot of things
I wonder if he regrets how things ended with us. I know I have my regrets. I wish I spoke up more for myself and didn't let him walk all over me, but what's done is done. At least there's a lesson to be learned from it all.
Another reflection on how the song related to my first romantic relationship:
You never really wanted it You'll settle for a bit of it We started with a big bang And now it's coming back again
He didn't want it at first, but he ended up giving it a try. Things were happening really quickly for us, until they weren't...
Hey, don't you feel it now? My shiny side down Hey, burning brighter still And you're getting sick And you're feeling it
Once I got to expressing my feelings, he wasn't comfortable and got sick of it all, and so, he kept pulling and pulling away.
It'll wear you down and wear you down You chase it, breathing in and out and in and out They'll push you up against the wall, against the wall You didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong about it Push
My honesty was getting to be too much for him, wearing him down, yet he kept chasing it until he felt the push. He didn't think he would feel so much, but he was wrong.
It started with a handgun Loaded with excuses I started faking it And then we started breaking it All the pieces used to fit Using like it's going out of style Maybe just a little while And This will be the last time Every time's the last time
Excuses, excuses, excuses. He kept bringing them up and since he wasn't taking ownership for his actions, I started acting like I was okay, even though I really, truly, wasn't. That's when things started to break and no longer fit like they used to.
Hey, don't you feel it now? My shiny side down Hey, burning brighter still And you're getting stuck And you fucked it up
He felt stuck, so he started putting up a wall of boundaries; boundaries that worked for him and him alone. I respected them, but I wasn't happy. And then when I tried to speak up and set a boundary of my own, he wouldn't respect it. I regreted it I regret a lot of things I regreted it I regret a lot of things
I wonder if he regrets how things ended with us. I know I have my regrets. I wish I spoke up more for myself and didn't let him walk all over me, but what's done is done. At least there's a lesson to be learned from it all.
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