“Two oceans in between us, and I wait for shore.”
He feels a humongous distance between himself and the other subject. “I wait for shore,” tells me that he is waiting for salvation. I get the idea that whatever it is that he desires, he feels almost hopeless for it and he’s to the point where he’s given up taking action and he’s being passive by waiting for saving.
“There’s a gate I see, there’s a way for me.”
Glimmer of hope.
“Now this one sits here, and whispers things to me. Now I got the devil inside. This one made a pig of me.”
He gave into temptation and did something that he deems as wrong.
“This world is primal, my grinding jaw.”
He’s talking about a natural desire or instinct and the fact that he’s grinding his jaw shows that he’s trying to contain himself from acting on it, further indicating that he feels it’s wrong.
“The headache pill, the necktie on my bedroom door.”
Headache pill probably for a hangover and a necktie on a bedroom door is a do not disturb sign, traditionally indicating that someone is inside engaging in sexual activity.
Him saying “THE headache pill,” rather than, “A headache pill,” makes me think that this is a pattern of his.
With everything said so far, my guess is that he gets drunk at brothels and sleeps with prostitutes. Especially because he says, “THIS ONE sits here and whispers things to me,” implying that there are multiple of “this one”. That could also imply that he’s referring to one woman out of all women as a whole, but because of the extreme guilt that I’m picking up on, I suspect that he is engaging in prostitution.
“My conscience burning. My eyes are too.”
He feels ashamed. He’s crying.
“Cuddled up with a heart condemned, I should love you and I swear I do.”
He is cuddling with someone who he believes is destined for heartache caused by his actions and lack thereof. He does not express any love for this someone, although, deep down he actually does care about them. Perhaps he feels ashamed for using these women as if they are pieces of meat, rather than loving them like human beings.
“This world is rabid." "My beastly flaw.”
These lines support my hypothesis of him partaking in a brothel because it makes sense for someone to view a world which engages in prostitution and one night stands as “rabid.” He feels his actions are vicious.
“Follow me through an empty dream, I’m sleeping next to someone new.”
He feels empty. He likely sleeps with new people frequently.
“I’m such a coward”
What is he afraid of? My guess is that he’s afraid of true intimacy and being better.
“These wretched things I do. Disgrace and treachery, I’m a sickness and I know it’s true.”
He feels he is a serious problem. He has extremely low self esteem.
“This world is learning. This world is pure, but she could be my Valentine underneath my sheets on the bedroom floor.”
It’s almost like he had hope for himself, thinking that he can learn and grow, but then he quickly reverts back to his primal desire.
(Whenever he says “this world,” I believe he is in a roundabout way referring to himself.)
This line shows me that the part of himself that he deems as wrong is so deeply rooted in him and he is having much trouble getting rid of it. He likes it in a way. He’s attached to it.
“Gonna push her down. Gonna spread her out. Gonna taste her tan. Gonna suck her fat. Gonna blow her back. Then the shameful slack. Gonna wake up dry.”
He is describing his pattern. He beats himself up for it. He feels much pain.
“I don’t have anything.”
This line makes me think that he believes he has nothing valuable to offer...
Like I said, extremely low self esteem.
Taking everything into account I think that his salvation is being able to heal and provide a loving committed relationship and more.
At first I thought this was a song about cheating, but after diving into it, I no longer think so. I think this man is definitely single.
“Two oceans in between us, and I wait for shore.” He feels a humongous distance between himself and the other subject. “I wait for shore,” tells me that he is waiting for salvation. I get the idea that whatever it is that he desires, he feels almost hopeless for it and he’s to the point where he’s given up taking action and he’s being passive by waiting for saving.
“There’s a gate I see, there’s a way for me.” Glimmer of hope.
“Now this one sits here, and whispers things to me. Now I got the devil inside. This one made a pig of me.” He gave into temptation and did something that he deems as wrong.
“This world is primal, my grinding jaw.” He’s talking about a natural desire or instinct and the fact that he’s grinding his jaw shows that he’s trying to contain himself from acting on it, further indicating that he feels it’s wrong.
“The headache pill, the necktie on my bedroom door.” Headache pill probably for a hangover and a necktie on a bedroom door is a do not disturb sign, traditionally indicating that someone is inside engaging in sexual activity.
Him saying “THE headache pill,” rather than, “A headache pill,” makes me think that this is a pattern of his. With everything said so far, my guess is that he gets drunk at brothels and sleeps with prostitutes. Especially because he says, “THIS ONE sits here and whispers things to me,” implying that there are multiple of “this one”. That could also imply that he’s referring to one woman out of all women as a whole, but because of the extreme guilt that I’m picking up on, I suspect that he is engaging in prostitution.
“My conscience burning. My eyes are too.” He feels ashamed. He’s crying.
“Cuddled up with a heart condemned, I should love you and I swear I do.” He is cuddling with someone who he believes is destined for heartache caused by his actions and lack thereof. He does not express any love for this someone, although, deep down he actually does care about them. Perhaps he feels ashamed for using these women as if they are pieces of meat, rather than loving them like human beings.
“This world is rabid." "My beastly flaw.” These lines support my hypothesis of him partaking in a brothel because it makes sense for someone to view a world which engages in prostitution and one night stands as “rabid.” He feels his actions are vicious.
“Follow me through an empty dream, I’m sleeping next to someone new.” He feels empty. He likely sleeps with new people frequently.
“I’m such a coward” What is he afraid of? My guess is that he’s afraid of true intimacy and being better.
“These wretched things I do. Disgrace and treachery, I’m a sickness and I know it’s true.” He feels he is a serious problem. He has extremely low self esteem.
“This world is learning. This world is pure, but she could be my Valentine underneath my sheets on the bedroom floor.” It’s almost like he had hope for himself, thinking that he can learn and grow, but then he quickly reverts back to his primal desire. (Whenever he says “this world,” I believe he is in a roundabout way referring to himself.) This line shows me that the part of himself that he deems as wrong is so deeply rooted in him and he is having much trouble getting rid of it. He likes it in a way. He’s attached to it.
“Gonna push her down. Gonna spread her out. Gonna taste her tan. Gonna suck her fat. Gonna blow her back. Then the shameful slack. Gonna wake up dry.” He is describing his pattern. He beats himself up for it. He feels much pain.
“I don’t have anything.” This line makes me think that he believes he has nothing valuable to offer... Like I said, extremely low self esteem.
Taking everything into account I think that his salvation is being able to heal and provide a loving committed relationship and more. At first I thought this was a song about cheating, but after diving into it, I no longer think so. I think this man is definitely single.