Ava

“Two oceans in between us, and I wait for shore” He feels a humongous distance between himself and the other subject. “I wait for shore” tells me that he is waiting for a savior. I get the idea that whatever it is that he desires, he feels almost hopeless for it and he’s to the point where he’s given up taking action and he’s being passive. “There’s a gate I see, there’s a way for me” Glimmer of hope. “Now this one sits here, and whispers things to me. Now I got the devil inside. This one made a pig of me.” He gave into temptation and did something that he deems as wrong. “This world is primal, my grinding jaw.” He’s talking about a natural need and the fact that he’s grinding his jaw shows that he’s trying to hold back, further indicating that he feels it’s wrong to act upon.

“The headache pill the neck tie on my bedroom door” Headache pill probably for a hang over and a neck tie on a bedroom door is a sign that a woman is over engaging in sexual activity. Him saying “The” headache pill, makes me think that it’s “the” go to, meaning that this isn’t his first rodeo. He probably goes to bars, gets drunk and takes home random women. “My conscience burning. My eyes are too. Cuddled up with a heart condemned. I should love you and I swear I do.” He feels guilty. He wants to cry. He hurts because he doesn’t love these women. He feels guilty for using them and treating them like meat instead of loving them and treating them as living human beings and he feels that he is setting them up for heart break. Hence “cuddled up with a heart condemned”. “This world is rabid” He views his actions as cutthroat. He feels vicious doing this. He probably drops these women the very next day or acts cold towards them after he’s done with them. “Follow me through an empty dream I’m sleeping next to someone new” He has no dreams or aspirations. He’s trying to fill a void through sex. Yet it’s continuously with someone new because he doesn’t feel worthy or good enough to progress further than sex with anybody. “My beastly flaw” “I’m such a coward” he’s afraid of real intimacy. “These wretched things I do. Disgrace and treachery I’m a sickness and I know it’s true.” He feels he has a serious problem. “This world is learning. This world is pure, but she could be my Valentine underneath my sheets on the bedroom floor” This line tells me that he really is addicted to sex and that sex is all that he can provide a woman.

“Gonna push her down. Gonna spread her out. Gonna taste her tan. Gonna suck her thigh. Gonna hold her back. Then the shameful slack. Gonna wake up dry. I don’t have anything.” He is describing his pattern, showing that this is all he’s going to do and that he has nothing else for her and he feels shame from it.

the song is for sure about a relationship that is falling apart and the man leads to cheating "now this one sits here, whispers things to me." means some lady is talking to him and seducing him " my conscious burning' means he knows its wrong but it's his "beastly flaw" and 'the necktie on my bedroom door" was a sign used to tell people not to come. finally "sleeping next to someone new" pretty self explanatory really

“Two oceans in between us, and I wait for shore.” He feels a humongous distance between himself and the other subject. “I wait for shore,” tells me that he is waiting for salvation. I get the idea that whatever it is that he desires, he feels almost hopeless for it and he’s to the point where he’s given up taking action and he’s being passive by waiting for saving.

“There’s a gate I see, there’s a way for me.” Glimmer of hope.

“Now this one sits here, and whispers things to me. Now I got the devil inside. This one made a pig of me.” He gave into temptation and did something that he deems as wrong.

“This world is primal, my grinding jaw.” He’s talking about a natural desire or instinct and the fact that he’s grinding his jaw shows that he’s trying to contain himself from acting on it, further indicating that he feels it’s wrong.

“The headache pill, the necktie on my bedroom door.” Headache pill probably for a hangover and a necktie on a bedroom door is a do not disturb sign, traditionally indicating that someone is inside engaging in sexual activity.
Him saying “THE headache pill,” rather than, “A headache pill,” makes me think that this is a pattern of his. With everything said so far, my guess is that he gets drunk at brothels and sleeps with prostitutes. Especially because he says, “THIS ONE sits here and whispers things to me,” implying that there are multiple of “this one”. That could also imply that he’s referring to one woman out of all women as a whole, but because of the extreme guilt that I’m picking up on, I suspect that he is engaging in prostitution.

“My conscience burning. My eyes are too.” He feels ashamed. He’s crying.

“Cuddled up with a heart condemned, I should love you and I swear I do.” He is cuddling with someone who he believes is destined for heartache caused by his actions and lack thereof. He does not express any love for this someone, although, deep down he actually does care about them. Perhaps he feels ashamed for using these women as if they are pieces of meat, rather than loving them like human beings.

“This world is rabid." "My beastly flaw.” These lines support my hypothesis of him partaking in a brothel because it makes sense for someone to view a world which engages in prostitution and one night stands as “rabid.” He feels his actions are vicious.

“Follow me through an empty dream, I’m sleeping next to someone new.” He feels empty. He likely sleeps with new people frequently.

“I’m such a coward” What is he afraid of? My guess is that he’s afraid of true intimacy and being better.

“These wretched things I do. Disgrace and treachery, I’m a sickness and I know it’s true.” He feels he is a serious problem. He has extremely low self esteem.

“This world is learning. This world is pure, but she could be my Valentine underneath my sheets on the bedroom floor.” It’s almost like he had hope for himself, thinking that he can learn and grow, but then he quickly reverts back to his primal desire. (Whenever he says “this world,” I believe he is in a roundabout way referring to himself.) This line shows me that the part of himself that he deems as wrong is so deeply rooted in him and he is having much trouble getting rid of it. He likes it in a way. He’s attached to it.

“Gonna push her down. Gonna spread her out. Gonna taste her tan. Gonna suck her fat. Gonna blow her back. Then the shameful slack. Gonna wake up dry.” He is describing his pattern. He beats himself up for it. He feels much pain.

“I don’t have anything.” This line makes me think that he believes he has nothing valuable to offer... Like I said, extremely low self esteem.

Taking everything into account I think that his salvation is being able to heal and provide a loving committed relationship and more. At first I thought this was a song about cheating, but after diving into it, I no longer think so. I think this man is definitely single.

Seems like he was in a relationship with a perfect girl who he lost, I think to cheating, and now feels guilty and worthless.