I think this is about realizing & accepting or even embracing the inevitable weight of one's own mortality. Seeing death in a whole new light with the state of the world and one's place in it, I think the narrator here is realizing the end of their own life may not be as dark & disturbing in fact as it would be to have to continue to simply go on living.
I think this is about realizing & accepting or even embracing the inevitable weight of one's own mortality. Seeing death in a whole new light with the state of the world and one's place in it, I think the narrator here is realizing the end of their own life may not be as dark & disturbing in fact as it would be to have to continue to simply go on living.