I think this has to do with vocalist "Tim Lambesis" is still tackling personal issues as he deals with the fallout of his imprisonment for attempting to procure a hit on his now ex-wife. This song is the whirlwind of emotions, including guilt & selfishness that he had to come to terms with in order to move forward with his post prison life and get back on good terms with his family, friends & band mates.
I think this has to do with vocalist "Tim Lambesis" is still tackling personal issues as he deals with the fallout of his imprisonment for attempting to procure a hit on his now ex-wife. This song is the whirlwind of emotions, including guilt & selfishness that he had to come to terms with in order to move forward with his post prison life and get back on good terms with his family, friends & band mates.