This is my 3rd week of 'sobriety' on suboxone... for me, It's about loving pain killers that make you feel normal... Most users don't like people in general, people suck... So we prefer to be alone, with our pills... Once it hits, you rest, you feel like a person-- normal. The hell it puts you & your family thru when you don't have it, to have someone (family) kiss the skin that crawls from you is referring to the withdrawal symptoms... To feel your weight in arms I'd never use refers to not having to shoot up but feeling the high (weight) it brings, it's the God that heroin prays to bc its the new and improved heroin(maybe it's stronger? Fentanyl?). Feels good to be alone with you. When you're clean you still want to ask for more, even though the worst part of detox is over, just because you still aren't normal and able to feel hole in your own body, without a trace of the drugs in your system (and from the narrators pov) he really hates being sober... thinking that he should just give in and run away with his pills (baby) and maybe even try heroin (momma) bc of the damaged love (the high) it brings. Thinking about relapsing brings him to think about the withdrawals again and the everlasting feeling to get more, do it again, anything to try to ease the w/d symptoms and keep feeling the euphoria...
This is my 3rd week of 'sobriety' on suboxone... for me, It's about loving pain killers that make you feel normal... Most users don't like people in general, people suck... So we prefer to be alone, with our pills... Once it hits, you rest, you feel like a person-- normal. The hell it puts you & your family thru when you don't have it, to have someone (family) kiss the skin that crawls from you is referring to the withdrawal symptoms... To feel your weight in arms I'd never use refers to not having to shoot up but feeling the high (weight) it brings, it's the God that heroin prays to bc its the new and improved heroin(maybe it's stronger? Fentanyl?). Feels good to be alone with you. When you're clean you still want to ask for more, even though the worst part of detox is over, just because you still aren't normal and able to feel hole in your own body, without a trace of the drugs in your system (and from the narrators pov) he really hates being sober... thinking that he should just give in and run away with his pills (baby) and maybe even try heroin (momma) bc of the damaged love (the high) it brings. Thinking about relapsing brings him to think about the withdrawals again and the everlasting feeling to get more, do it again, anything to try to ease the w/d symptoms and keep feeling the euphoria...