I think he's talking about getting high, probably on some kind of psychedelic drug, and seeing himself from two different perspectives.
He talks about a "chemical freeway", then shifts into talking from the perspective of a higher consciousness and loss of self ("So I am no more").
Then he starts talking about how this experience is different than his usual dreams. In his dreams he wins, but his experience showed him that he's "nothing". He talks about how his typical thoughts harm him (crucifying and poisoning him), but his experience showed him how pointless all of that is.
He also talks about how his experience has shielded him from the harm of others, and from desire. I think "beat the alien" might be a reference to him wishing to get rid of his other state of mind and live in the nothingness of that higher state.
I think he's talking about getting high, probably on some kind of psychedelic drug, and seeing himself from two different perspectives.
He talks about a "chemical freeway", then shifts into talking from the perspective of a higher consciousness and loss of self ("So I am no more").
Then he starts talking about how this experience is different than his usual dreams. In his dreams he wins, but his experience showed him that he's "nothing". He talks about how his typical thoughts harm him (crucifying and poisoning him), but his experience showed him how pointless all of that is.
He also talks about how his experience has shielded him from the harm of others, and from desire. I think "beat the alien" might be a reference to him wishing to get rid of his other state of mind and live in the nothingness of that higher state.