I think he's saying he had no reason to believe in God because his life was so shit that why would an all loving God allow all that crap to happen to him and everyone else in the world. He turned to drugs to fill the void in his life, but now that he feels his days are numbered he starts to "Fear the unknown" maybe there is a God and all the bad shit he's done in his life will cause him to burn in Hell forever. He doesn't know what to do but he has no idea how to get off the drugs or if he even knows how to handle life without the drugs. So he just keeps abusing and living in fear.
This song gives me chills...
I think he's saying he had no reason to believe in God because his life was so shit that why would an all loving God allow all that crap to happen to him and everyone else in the world. He turned to drugs to fill the void in his life, but now that he feels his days are numbered he starts to "Fear the unknown" maybe there is a God and all the bad shit he's done in his life will cause him to burn in Hell forever. He doesn't know what to do but he has no idea how to get off the drugs or if he even knows how to handle life without the drugs. So he just keeps abusing and living in fear.
God I almost cry when I hear this song.