My personal interpretation of the song. For context, I had just left my soulmate after a year, fearing he didn't love me enough for me to stay, and yearning for him to tell me to, but ultimately finding he was fearing the same thing- that i didnt love him enough to stay.
---Why didn't I say anything until now? ---
After a nonviolent separation of two soulmates who were struggling to appreciate the importance of what they had until it was gone - while they promised to be friends - silence, as they care about each other but let insecurity quiet their hurting screaming hearts. After a few months of agony and half hearted "i hope youre doing okay"s... One finally breaks the silence, and the other is in complete agreement and relief, and they seek to repair their relationship. Why didn't I say anything until now?
---So much is said without a sound---
The fact that I let my insecurities dictate and stifle the life of something so special... worrying more about self image (fear of being fooled) than the other's well-being, we both muted our hearts, We were too afraid of a second rejection/failure to reconnect and admit to our prideful mistakes. Its offensive and hurtful - They aren't willing to put themselves on the line (at risk) for the person they supposedly care about so deeply? It isn't worth the try? So much is said when you can't take the chance on something you both know is so powerful and real, it's hidden inside. As if the reward (a lifetime of love and companionship) doesn't outweigh the risk to the ego... which hurts. Why didn't I say anything until now?
---Water so calm, and once so pure---
---Undisturbed---
They used to be so pure, so madly in love that nothing else mattered at all, ...but it is disrupted by the one who ran away in fear, and the other who allowed her to leave, without voicing his real need for her, his passion and the real weight of their connection in comparison to such trivial arguments. Also he was afraid that she didnt feel the same permanency, when really she too needed affirmation...
---Standing for so long the color turns---
The water that was so pure but turned (algae, green) because they became consumed by their daily stresses and routines and small fights/passive aggressive comments, etc. that the love went wrong. It became unclear. They virtually had forgotten how much they meant to one another.
---Their work is so hard---
It's so hard to admit your mistakes, because you have trust issues and you are determined to prove that you will not be taken advantage of or manipulated...It's so hard to pour your heart out when lately it has been nothing but nonstop criticisms, an absence of gratitude: insecurity.
---We never felt the sticky thread---
They never had the confidence or the assurance to believe it could be forever, while they each wanted it so desperately. They never felt sure it would last, always in fear that one would leave, given the somewhat resentful color of the water. The sticky thread. Sticking together. Continuity. Pushing past the dark sides of the relationship and accepting/forgiving and carrying on. Not weighing the fights more heavily than the love.
---The spider webs---
The intricate web that must be created: commitment. loyalty. A vow to stick together forever. A web that catches what it can and will have to be completely made from scratch if destroyed... Their work is so hard...
---Their balance in the garden---
The importance of the forever commitment, the "til death do us part" vow. and how it plays a role in the nature/balance of the relationship and the security that each lover needs to feel to be truly let love grow in the graden.
---Their work is so hard---
It's hard to not have your doubts. It's hard to say for certain that I want to grow old and die with you. Its hard to craft the web that balances the garden, protects the relationship.
My personal interpretation of the song. For context, I had just left my soulmate after a year, fearing he didn't love me enough for me to stay, and yearning for him to tell me to, but ultimately finding he was fearing the same thing- that i didnt love him enough to stay.
---Why didn't I say anything until now? --- After a nonviolent separation of two soulmates who were struggling to appreciate the importance of what they had until it was gone - while they promised to be friends - silence, as they care about each other but let insecurity quiet their hurting screaming hearts. After a few months of agony and half hearted "i hope youre doing okay"s... One finally breaks the silence, and the other is in complete agreement and relief, and they seek to repair their relationship. Why didn't I say anything until now?
---So much is said without a sound--- The fact that I let my insecurities dictate and stifle the life of something so special... worrying more about self image (fear of being fooled) than the other's well-being, we both muted our hearts, We were too afraid of a second rejection/failure to reconnect and admit to our prideful mistakes. Its offensive and hurtful - They aren't willing to put themselves on the line (at risk) for the person they supposedly care about so deeply? It isn't worth the try? So much is said when you can't take the chance on something you both know is so powerful and real, it's hidden inside. As if the reward (a lifetime of love and companionship) doesn't outweigh the risk to the ego... which hurts. Why didn't I say anything until now?
---Water so calm, and once so pure--- ---Undisturbed--- They used to be so pure, so madly in love that nothing else mattered at all, ...but it is disrupted by the one who ran away in fear, and the other who allowed her to leave, without voicing his real need for her, his passion and the real weight of their connection in comparison to such trivial arguments. Also he was afraid that she didnt feel the same permanency, when really she too needed affirmation...
---Standing for so long the color turns--- The water that was so pure but turned (algae, green) because they became consumed by their daily stresses and routines and small fights/passive aggressive comments, etc. that the love went wrong. It became unclear. They virtually had forgotten how much they meant to one another.
---Their work is so hard--- It's so hard to admit your mistakes, because you have trust issues and you are determined to prove that you will not be taken advantage of or manipulated...It's so hard to pour your heart out when lately it has been nothing but nonstop criticisms, an absence of gratitude: insecurity.
---We never felt the sticky thread--- They never had the confidence or the assurance to believe it could be forever, while they each wanted it so desperately. They never felt sure it would last, always in fear that one would leave, given the somewhat resentful color of the water. The sticky thread. Sticking together. Continuity. Pushing past the dark sides of the relationship and accepting/forgiving and carrying on. Not weighing the fights more heavily than the love.
---The spider webs--- The intricate web that must be created: commitment. loyalty. A vow to stick together forever. A web that catches what it can and will have to be completely made from scratch if destroyed... Their work is so hard...
---Their balance in the garden--- The importance of the forever commitment, the "til death do us part" vow. and how it plays a role in the nature/balance of the relationship and the security that each lover needs to feel to be truly let love grow in the graden.
---Their work is so hard--- It's hard to not have your doubts. It's hard to say for certain that I want to grow old and die with you. Its hard to craft the web that balances the garden, protects the relationship.