I think it's pretty obvious what this song is about. The narrator was in an abusive relationship, and now he's out. But he doesn't necessarily like that the relationship is over. He's so happy that he's not being manipulated anymore, but at the same time, he wanted to be with her. He doesn't know what to do because he misses being hurt by this girl, and just wants to make up his mind. Does he want her back with all of her abuse, or does he want freedom without love?
I think it's pretty obvious what this song is about. The narrator was in an abusive relationship, and now he's out. But he doesn't necessarily like that the relationship is over. He's so happy that he's not being manipulated anymore, but at the same time, he wanted to be with her. He doesn't know what to do because he misses being hurt by this girl, and just wants to make up his mind. Does he want her back with all of her abuse, or does he want freedom without love?