This song means a lot to me personally. I've had a history of abuse and thought I'd share my interpretation. This is what it means to me.
The drought was the very worst
When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst
(It's hard not being with you. You taught me everything.)
It was months, and months of back and forth
You're still all over me like I wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore
Hung my head, as I lost the war, and the sky turn black like a perfect storm
(For a long time I knew you were wrong, but I stayed anyway, out of hope. Everything I learned from y'all, it's stuck to me and I don't know how to get it off. I give up, I'm gonna do it. I need to cut)
Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean
(I thought it was helping me cope with what you did to me. Like a brand new slate. Forgive and forget, yeah?)
[For after I left the abusive relationship]
There was nothing left to do
And the butterflies turned to dust they covered my whole room
(I was scared and now I'm not. My eyes are open)
So I punched a hole in the roof
Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you
The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing
(I can't believe I let that happen. I hate you for it. Screw you. I'm making my own path, you weren't there when I needed help. You rejected to accept I had problems.)
Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean
I think I am finally clean
Said, I think I am finally clean
(I'm getting better. I'll show you, bitch. I don't need y'all, or it.)
10 months sober, I must admit
Just because you're clean don't mean you miss it
(I want to do it. I want to do it. I want to...)
10 months older I won't give in
Now that I'm clean I'm never gonna risk it
(I won't do it. Not again, I'm stronger than that, I know I am.)
The drought was the very worst
When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst
(I miss it. But, I don't miss you.)
Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean
Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean
(I did it. I'm clean of you. And you. And cutting.)
This song means a lot to me personally. I've had a history of abuse and thought I'd share my interpretation. This is what it means to me.
The drought was the very worst When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst (It's hard not being with you. You taught me everything.) It was months, and months of back and forth You're still all over me like I wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore Hung my head, as I lost the war, and the sky turn black like a perfect storm (For a long time I knew you were wrong, but I stayed anyway, out of hope. Everything I learned from y'all, it's stuck to me and I don't know how to get it off. I give up, I'm gonna do it. I need to cut)
Rain came pouring down when I was drowning That's when I could finally breathe And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean (I thought it was helping me cope with what you did to me. Like a brand new slate. Forgive and forget, yeah?)
[For after I left the abusive relationship] There was nothing left to do And the butterflies turned to dust they covered my whole room (I was scared and now I'm not. My eyes are open) So I punched a hole in the roof Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing (I can't believe I let that happen. I hate you for it. Screw you. I'm making my own path, you weren't there when I needed help. You rejected to accept I had problems.)
Rain came pouring down when I was drowning That's when I could finally breathe And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean I think I am finally clean Said, I think I am finally clean (I'm getting better. I'll show you, bitch. I don't need y'all, or it.)
10 months sober, I must admit Just because you're clean don't mean you miss it (I want to do it. I want to do it. I want to...) 10 months older I won't give in Now that I'm clean I'm never gonna risk it (I won't do it. Not again, I'm stronger than that, I know I am.) The drought was the very worst When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst (I miss it. But, I don't miss you.)
Rain came pouring down when I was drowning That's when I could finally breathe And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean Rain came pouring down when I was drowning That's when I could finally breathe And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean (I did it. I'm clean of you. And you. And cutting.)