Basically, this girl liked a boy but was too afraid to admit to him. She was wasting time just sitting around and not doing anything about her feelings for him, afraid to get rejected or lose their friendship they already had. However, little did she know that he liked her as well, and he told her this but it was probably too late... maybe he got a girlfriend or moved on from her or something, and now everything has been thrown back at her and it's "collapsed in her lap"... the friendship isn't working out now, it has collapsed and she feels like it's because of her. She wonders if she will ever find someone similar to him, but she realizes once she finds someone that is kind of like him that he is a fake... he isn't the real deal... he isn't the guy.
Basically, this girl liked a boy but was too afraid to admit to him. She was wasting time just sitting around and not doing anything about her feelings for him, afraid to get rejected or lose their friendship they already had. However, little did she know that he liked her as well, and he told her this but it was probably too late... maybe he got a girlfriend or moved on from her or something, and now everything has been thrown back at her and it's "collapsed in her lap"... the friendship isn't working out now, it has collapsed and she feels like it's because of her. She wonders if she will ever find someone similar to him, but she realizes once she finds someone that is kind of like him that he is a fake... he isn't the real deal... he isn't the guy.