my guess is that this is either about anorexia or drugs. she regrets having confessed about it to somebody, and now she's rationalizing and planning how to get out of conversations with more people trying to help her. she's starting to love her new body and way of life, and she isn't willing to give that up.
my guess is that this is either about anorexia or drugs. she regrets having confessed about it to somebody, and now she's rationalizing and planning how to get out of conversations with more people trying to help her. she's starting to love her new body and way of life, and she isn't willing to give that up.