Having been in a toxic/failed relationship myself I can relate to every word of this song.... the desire to set yourself free from that other person, so that you could be "more yourself", but every time you try you are obsessed with whether they "want you back" or not...
In order to represent the state of confusion that a situation like this can set you in, I think that the writer is describing in reverse the different stages of this attempt at liberation: in the second verse she has just arrived at the hotel, she left her partner and feels proud of herself. But then the doubts start creeping up, is being alone really better than being unhappy but with that someone? Will I disappear? So finally (regressing back to the beginning), she gives in and calls him.
Having been in a toxic/failed relationship myself I can relate to every word of this song.... the desire to set yourself free from that other person, so that you could be "more yourself", but every time you try you are obsessed with whether they "want you back" or not...
In order to represent the state of confusion that a situation like this can set you in, I think that the writer is describing in reverse the different stages of this attempt at liberation: in the second verse she has just arrived at the hotel, she left her partner and feels proud of herself. But then the doubts start creeping up, is being alone really better than being unhappy but with that someone? Will I disappear? So finally (regressing back to the beginning), she gives in and calls him.