I called you from the hotel phone
I haven't dialed this code before
I'm sleeping later and waking later
I'm eating less and thinking more
And how am I without you?
Am I more myself or less myself?
I feel younger, louder
Like I don't always connect
Like I don't ever connect
And do you like being single?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
And do I like being single?
Am I coming back?
Am I coming back?
I'll put my suitcase here for now
I'll turn the TV to the bed
But if no one calls and I don't speak all day
Do I disappear?
And look at me without you
I'm quite proud of myself
I feel reckless, clumsy
Like I'm making a mistake
A really big mistake
And do you like being single?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
And do I like being single?
Am I coming back?
Am I coming back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
And now I know
Each time I go
I don't really know
What I'm thinking
And now I know
Each time I go
I don't really know
What I'm thinking of
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
I haven't dialed this code before
I'm sleeping later and waking later
I'm eating less and thinking more
And how am I without you?
Am I more myself or less myself?
I feel younger, louder
Like I don't always connect
Like I don't ever connect
And do you like being single?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
And do I like being single?
Am I coming back?
Am I coming back?
I'll put my suitcase here for now
I'll turn the TV to the bed
But if no one calls and I don't speak all day
Do I disappear?
And look at me without you
I'm quite proud of myself
I feel reckless, clumsy
Like I'm making a mistake
A really big mistake
And do you like being single?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
And do I like being single?
Am I coming back?
Am I coming back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
And now I know
Each time I go
I don't really know
What I'm thinking
And now I know
Each time I go
I don't really know
What I'm thinking of
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
Do you want me back?
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"I'm sleeping later and waking later
I'm eating less and thinking more
And how am I without you?
Am I more myself or less myself?"
She's trying to get away from the relationship, because she thinks she's becoming dependable, but she's not sure if that's good or bad.
"And look at me without you
I'm quite proud of myself
I feel reckless, clumsy
Like I'm making a mistake
A really big mistake"
Nothing to say about this last part, just love it.
“But if no one calls and I don't speak all day
Do I disappear?”
I think it's about someone who has finally left a relationship they probably should have left before then because of the dependency issues. At the same time, their world is teetering because they put so much into being "them" that as single units they're no longer sure how they should function. It's down to simple movements to get through;
"I'll put my suitcase here for now, I'll turn the TV to the bed"
Mechanical motions, one thought at a time - followed up by some incredible insight;
"But if no one calls and I don't speak all day - do I disappear?"
If she hasn't spoken to anyone for the entire day - does she cease to exist that day?
She still has some serious dependency issues - asking whether the other half wants her back and if she can come back - it's all inside her head, she's thinking about it. She's miles away, running away;
"I called you from the hotel phone, I haven't dialled this code before"
She's gone so far away to escape - and it's not the first time;
"And now I know, each time I go, I don't really know what I think I know"
The leaving is becoming routine or habit, she doesn't know why she keeps doing it and she can't comprehend why she does what she does.
Just my thoughts on a brilliant song!
In order to represent the state of confusion that a situation like this can set you in, I think that the writer is describing in reverse the different stages of this attempt at liberation: in the second verse she has just arrived at the hotel, she left her partner and feels proud of herself. But then the doubts start creeping up, is being alone really better than being unhappy but with that someone? Will I disappear? So finally (regressing back to the beginning), she gives in and calls him.