Possibility

Note: The first part I talk about Twilight a little bit. But this is not my main intention so if you can get through the first paragraph you will see what I think it is about.

I think for some of these songs they help shape the idea of how a situation might feel. Like this song is describing the whole Bella/Edward thing. And when I understand it. I read the books. When I was at this point in New Moon it was so tragic reading about Bella's loss and feeling it as well. And like I said, I believe this is a great song to enhance the emotions of what was going on. But I read this silly romance series before I ever had my heart actually break. And I think my heart broke tonight finally after much weight on it for a long time. This song means so much more now listening to it.

Now I am going to use this as from a girl perspective but this song and emotions could easily apply for a guy as well.

I feel like he left. You can easily see that here:

 All that I had was all I gon’ get
 All I gon get is gone with your step 

Now in my situation I made a mistake. I felt like there might be more out there and I left him. But now that I am out here, my mind always goes back to him, and I realize that although he is not perfect...he is perfect for me. I have this new appreciation for him. Who else will know me and love me as much as he did. So all that I had was all I was going to get. And now it's gone and I don't know if I can get that back. And for me it feels awful because I think I didn't see this until he was gone. But for anyone they can easily say that they feel everything they needed is gone because that other person is gone. And it is such a heartbreaking feeling.

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You’re the only who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence 
There’s a possibility 
I wouldn’t know 

Hearing this makes me want to cry because it is drenched in truth. When you are so close with someone and you know them so well you can tell by the slightest hint in their expression that something is wrong it's an amazing feeling. I had this with him and I feel so completely lost without it. Who else pays attention to me like that? Who else loves me so much that they know what's best for me more than I do. I feel like right now I am so torn up but no one will notice. The only person who would be able to make me feel better is gone. The only person who I matter to is gone. It's so hard to describe the real raw emotion in this song.

And I hate to use a Bella/Edward thing in this description because this is far more real than any authors characters could represent or portray but Edward had superb hearing. He could hear the literal beating of her heart. And when Bella's heart stops he would be the only one to know. But her actual heart didn't stop. It was the heart she feels emotion with. And it's just like that. When someone knows you so well that they would notice that...is gone...it's tragic.

I thought describing this song would be easier than it has been. I hope that some of my ramblings make sense and are true somewhat to the actual meaning. But this is what it means for me.