I must admit that this is the song that made me listen to the metal. I was about, lets say, sixteen. I was also - well, let's say disliked in my class. My bet class mates just ignored me, rest of them used violence, called me different kind of words - you can imagine. I was fat, hated any kind of physical activity, so they could do whatever they wanted.
It lasted almost all high school, with time some teachers started to hate me, because I was not cooperating with the class (for example I never went to a class trip or anything like that, no class christmas, and so on). The thing is, I couldn't leave... or didn't want to leave. My mother wanted me to go there, because it was one of best HS in Poland, and she also went there, when she was young (she was second best there). What would it mean for me if I couldn't just complete the school, even on the last place?
After three years of being a victim I had completely no self esteem - they could spit me in the face, and I would do nothing, they could call me whatever they desired - i did nothing, I didn't even run away. But then I have heard the song.
And I decided it has to change. I started to work out, ride a bicycle (20 at first, then 80km every day - it was winter back then), and soon - after four months I was the strongest in class.
Then there was an incident when we played football. One guy I absoultely hated hit me with a ball, he was two meters away and he used all his strength. I lost my breath for a while (he said "sorry, it was a mistake", but he didn't give a damn), then I lost control. I can hardly recall all what happened next, I had to get revenge. I didn't wait till the guy had the ball - I just run toward him, and hit him with my knee in the liver. He almost cried. He was lying on the ground, holding his stomach, hi friend shouted something like "what the f*** are you doing), I replied - "sorry, It was a mistake".
They wanted to beat me up in a locker/changing room after a class, so one got a punch in the face, and the second stopped like nothing happened.
They said i gone insane - one guy for example stole my pen and said that I would get it back if I earn it, so I grabbed hm after the class, and took it by the force. They couldn't understand how it can be - I was always a coward, now i fight for what is mine, and that is why I was insane;) Everyone that raised his hand against me - everyone got what they deserved.
It's all just like in the song - they created me. It is about people pushed away from the society, who have the power to strike back, not about religion. Heaven, hell, they are just words, sides of the barricade.
I must admit that this is the song that made me listen to the metal. I was about, lets say, sixteen. I was also - well, let's say disliked in my class. My bet class mates just ignored me, rest of them used violence, called me different kind of words - you can imagine. I was fat, hated any kind of physical activity, so they could do whatever they wanted.
It lasted almost all high school, with time some teachers started to hate me, because I was not cooperating with the class (for example I never went to a class trip or anything like that, no class christmas, and so on). The thing is, I couldn't leave... or didn't want to leave. My mother wanted me to go there, because it was one of best HS in Poland, and she also went there, when she was young (she was second best there). What would it mean for me if I couldn't just complete the school, even on the last place?
After three years of being a victim I had completely no self esteem - they could spit me in the face, and I would do nothing, they could call me whatever they desired - i did nothing, I didn't even run away. But then I have heard the song.
And I decided it has to change. I started to work out, ride a bicycle (20 at first, then 80km every day - it was winter back then), and soon - after four months I was the strongest in class.
Then there was an incident when we played football. One guy I absoultely hated hit me with a ball, he was two meters away and he used all his strength. I lost my breath for a while (he said "sorry, it was a mistake", but he didn't give a damn), then I lost control. I can hardly recall all what happened next, I had to get revenge. I didn't wait till the guy had the ball - I just run toward him, and hit him with my knee in the liver. He almost cried. He was lying on the ground, holding his stomach, hi friend shouted something like "what the f*** are you doing), I replied - "sorry, It was a mistake".
They wanted to beat me up in a locker/changing room after a class, so one got a punch in the face, and the second stopped like nothing happened.
They said i gone insane - one guy for example stole my pen and said that I would get it back if I earn it, so I grabbed hm after the class, and took it by the force. They couldn't understand how it can be - I was always a coward, now i fight for what is mine, and that is why I was insane;) Everyone that raised his hand against me - everyone got what they deserved.
It's all just like in the song - they created me. It is about people pushed away from the society, who have the power to strike back, not about religion. Heaven, hell, they are just words, sides of the barricade.