A girl is losing her friend to self mutilation and there seems to be nothing she can do to help or stop it. She feels so guilty, and wishes it could be her taking all of the hurt instead of her friend.
"Called her over
and asked her if she was improving
She said feels fine it's wonderful wonderful here"
He friend seems to be getting better because shes at a mental hospital
"Hex me told her
I dreamt of a devil that knew her
Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all over"
The girl tells her recovering friend about some "devil"... that could be someone who has betrayed her while they've been away in hospital, or she could have accidentally reminded her of some horror in her past. It makes her friend relapse into depression and she starts cutting again.
"Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over"
Her friend gets steadily worse and the girl could be getting mad at her here, trying to snap her out of it but only making it worse and worse...
"I lay quiet
waiting for her voice to say
"Some things you lose and some things you just give away"
Scold me failed her
If only I'd held on tighter to her
Pale white skin that twisted and withered away from me away from me"
In this part the girl could be finding her friend dying. Her friend dies, and the girl feels like she was the one who caused it, for real this time, and its not just in her head. She didnt just 'lose' her, she thinks she gave her away, killed her.
"Watch me lose her
It's almost like losing myself
Give her my soul
and let them take somebody else"
People tell the girl to forget about her dead friend, but she cant let go, she cant lose the memories or the guilt. She wants to die, because she thinks it might bring back her friend, she could go in her place.
"Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over all over me"
She's thinking of the times she got angry at her friend, and starts cutting herself to punish herself for letting go.
A girl is losing her friend to self mutilation and there seems to be nothing she can do to help or stop it. She feels so guilty, and wishes it could be her taking all of the hurt instead of her friend.
"Called her over and asked her if she was improving She said feels fine it's wonderful wonderful here"
He friend seems to be getting better because shes at a mental hospital
"Hex me told her I dreamt of a devil that knew her Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all over"
The girl tells her recovering friend about some "devil"... that could be someone who has betrayed her while they've been away in hospital, or she could have accidentally reminded her of some horror in her past. It makes her friend relapse into depression and she starts cutting again.
"Watch me fault her You're living like a disaster She said kill me faster with strawberry gashes all over"
Her friend gets steadily worse and the girl could be getting mad at her here, trying to snap her out of it but only making it worse and worse...
"I lay quiet waiting for her voice to say "Some things you lose and some things you just give away"
Scold me failed her If only I'd held on tighter to her Pale white skin that twisted and withered away from me away from me"
In this part the girl could be finding her friend dying. Her friend dies, and the girl feels like she was the one who caused it, for real this time, and its not just in her head. She didnt just 'lose' her, she thinks she gave her away, killed her.
"Watch me lose her It's almost like losing myself Give her my soul and let them take somebody else"
People tell the girl to forget about her dead friend, but she cant let go, she cant lose the memories or the guilt. She wants to die, because she thinks it might bring back her friend, she could go in her place.
"Watch me fault her You're living like a disaster She said kill me faster with strawberry gashes all over all over me"
She's thinking of the times she got angry at her friend, and starts cutting herself to punish herself for letting go.