What this song means to ME (And I'm sure it means different things to everyone who listens to it, christian, atheist, or otherwise) is the horrible feeling of sin, and the hope, and the freedom that Jesus Christ offers.
I've been a christian all my life, and I'm deeply in love with Jesus, but I'm not perfect. I fell into sin for about two years (pornography and masturbation).
The thing about living a double life (The outside person who's so in love with God, and the inside person bound by sin and hopelessness) is the atmosphere that you live your life in.
You feel hopeless, confused, ashamed... pitiful. (And let me clear up that it is not GOD Himself who makes you feel like this, it is YOU who condemns yourself, YOU who beats yourself up). See, you live your life feeling like a piece of dirt for continuing to betray the price that Jesus paid so that you don't HAVE to sin anymore.
What almost makes it worst is that His (God's, Jesus') voice never goes away, His eyes never stop burning in jealousy for your heart; You realize that TRULY nothing, not even this great, tumultuous sin can separate you from His love for you, which makes you (make yourself) feel... pitiful.
And you find yourself wanting to go back in time to that pinnacle moment that led you down this hellish road, so that you can scream at yourself not to do it.
This song to me is a storyboard of what falling into sin looks and feels like after you've been so in love with Jesus.
When you're on that horrid road you'll watch yourself hammer the nails into His hands, watch yourself betray those loving eyes, all the while not even daring to look Him in the face.
But He'll still be there, waiting for you, pleading for you to except the exit He created in your prison.
Because the truth is you'll never escape His voice calling you, or His eyes just looking and waiting to catch your own. You'll never run away from His love for you - there's no wall of any substance that could hide you from it.
So you have a choice: Continue to force your gaze away from Him, or let His eyes save you.
He set me free, by the way. I'm no longer bound by pornography and masturbation. He set me free in a single heartbeat by His amazing grace (not by ANY strength of my own). He'll do the same for you too.
What this song means to ME (And I'm sure it means different things to everyone who listens to it, christian, atheist, or otherwise) is the horrible feeling of sin, and the hope, and the freedom that Jesus Christ offers. I've been a christian all my life, and I'm deeply in love with Jesus, but I'm not perfect. I fell into sin for about two years (pornography and masturbation). The thing about living a double life (The outside person who's so in love with God, and the inside person bound by sin and hopelessness) is the atmosphere that you live your life in. You feel hopeless, confused, ashamed... pitiful. (And let me clear up that it is not GOD Himself who makes you feel like this, it is YOU who condemns yourself, YOU who beats yourself up). See, you live your life feeling like a piece of dirt for continuing to betray the price that Jesus paid so that you don't HAVE to sin anymore. What almost makes it worst is that His (God's, Jesus') voice never goes away, His eyes never stop burning in jealousy for your heart; You realize that TRULY nothing, not even this great, tumultuous sin can separate you from His love for you, which makes you (make yourself) feel... pitiful. And you find yourself wanting to go back in time to that pinnacle moment that led you down this hellish road, so that you can scream at yourself not to do it. This song to me is a storyboard of what falling into sin looks and feels like after you've been so in love with Jesus. When you're on that horrid road you'll watch yourself hammer the nails into His hands, watch yourself betray those loving eyes, all the while not even daring to look Him in the face. But He'll still be there, waiting for you, pleading for you to except the exit He created in your prison. Because the truth is you'll never escape His voice calling you, or His eyes just looking and waiting to catch your own. You'll never run away from His love for you - there's no wall of any substance that could hide you from it. So you have a choice: Continue to force your gaze away from Him, or let His eyes save you.
He set me free, by the way. I'm no longer bound by pornography and masturbation. He set me free in a single heartbeat by His amazing grace (not by ANY strength of my own). He'll do the same for you too.