It's not about a bad relationship. It's about learning to trust in a new one and hoping your partner will understand why you are the way you are.
"I wanna live before I die
so don't say I have to cry on
one more freezing floor
I ask you to open the door
and see how things could have gone
The reason that it took so long
before you could figure out
that for so long I was about to break
and there were no arms to keep me
from harming me and now I'm searchin back to see
how I never tried to ask for some sympathy
'cause no- nobody wants to ride with me too far
'cause I might trip away
but in your arms I'd rather stay"
In every other relationship, they've left her crying on the floor. Katy is/was a self harmer, & in that bit it means there's no-one to stop her from doing it. She wants to go on crazy adventures, but she'd rather stay in their arms.
"Want to dream about
Something I can't live without"
She wants to finally have something she can't live without so much so that she dreams about it.
"My foot is in your hand
I want you to understand
how I could be confused
right after being used"
She hopes they'll realise and understand the way she acts how she does after being used so much.
"but still your here in spite
when I close my eyes to dream at night
I've gotta keep my pants on
I gotta check my pulse before I've gone too far away
to hurt so i think I'll stay around to hear ya breath
saying all those words to me
unraveling my fantasy while I drink
my oleander tea"
In spite of it all, they're there and they're telling her things she wants to hear. Maybe true love? And everything is perfect and it's going the way she planned.
It's not about a bad relationship. It's about learning to trust in a new one and hoping your partner will understand why you are the way you are.
"I wanna live before I die so don't say I have to cry on one more freezing floor I ask you to open the door and see how things could have gone The reason that it took so long before you could figure out that for so long I was about to break and there were no arms to keep me from harming me and now I'm searchin back to see how I never tried to ask for some sympathy 'cause no- nobody wants to ride with me too far 'cause I might trip away but in your arms I'd rather stay"
In every other relationship, they've left her crying on the floor. Katy is/was a self harmer, & in that bit it means there's no-one to stop her from doing it. She wants to go on crazy adventures, but she'd rather stay in their arms.
"Want to dream about Something I can't live without" She wants to finally have something she can't live without so much so that she dreams about it.
"My foot is in your hand I want you to understand how I could be confused right after being used"
She hopes they'll realise and understand the way she acts how she does after being used so much.
"but still your here in spite when I close my eyes to dream at night I've gotta keep my pants on I gotta check my pulse before I've gone too far away to hurt so i think I'll stay around to hear ya breath saying all those words to me unraveling my fantasy while I drink my oleander tea"
In spite of it all, they're there and they're telling her things she wants to hear. Maybe true love? And everything is perfect and it's going the way she planned.