i don't know that it's necessarily about a romantic relationship. i think it could also be taken as a relationship with god, one that has fallen apart. i felt the same way when i fell out of the christian faith -- sometimes i wanted to go back to that blind faith, blind ignorance, just because it was comforting. but i also feel like i lost some time while i was a christian.
@render I feel that with my Native American religion. I’d love to have what my other family have but they abandoned me and didn’t teach me enough about it. I got enough out of it, the only people who were supposed to sponsor me and could are hurtful, neglectful, all because of something I couldn’t control. Anyways, it’s just a distraction to try and force myself to believe in that stuff because it didn’t come as naturally fulfilling as it did to them to look up to such a higher power. It’s just a stupid waste of my time to...
@render I feel that with my Native American religion. I’d love to have what my other family have but they abandoned me and didn’t teach me enough about it. I got enough out of it, the only people who were supposed to sponsor me and could are hurtful, neglectful, all because of something I couldn’t control. Anyways, it’s just a distraction to try and force myself to believe in that stuff because it didn’t come as naturally fulfilling as it did to them to look up to such a higher power. It’s just a stupid waste of my time to try to convince myself i need to believe in all that to be happier. It’s mentally draining because your deluding yourself. It holds you back. For a bit you feel connected but then you remember that gap and you fall a little bit into a hole of thinking that nothing matters because you can’t put faith into something you thought you could. But you it just cant feel right to try and put faith in something just so you feel better about life when there’s the other part of you that has learned the atheists side. I still have a hard time letting go because sometimes I can have the spiritual backup to motivate me to do good, but it can never be an automatic part of my life because I don’t know how devout I should be. Never got that part. So you just gotta choose to choose eventually to let go and walk through life without it even coming up again. It will but you can entertain the idea any further. You gotta commit to believing there is something, but you’ll never know for sure. The way I mention things are out of order from the lyrics but youll know where to put them
@render I feel that with my Native American religion. I’d love to have what my other family have but they abandoned me and didn’t teach me enough about it. I got enough out of it, the only people who were supposed to sponsor me and could are hurtful, neglectful, all because of something I couldn’t control. Anyways, it’s just a distraction to try and force myself to believe in that stuff because it didn’t come as naturally fulfilling as it did to them to look up to such a higher power. It’s just a stupid waste of my time to...
@render I feel that with my Native American religion. I’d love to have what my other family have but they abandoned me and didn’t teach me enough about it. I got enough out of it, the only people who were supposed to sponsor me and could are hurtful, neglectful, all because of something I couldn’t control. Anyways, it’s just a distraction to try and force myself to believe in that stuff because it didn’t come as naturally fulfilling as it did to them to look up to such a higher power. It’s just a stupid waste of my time to try to convince myself i need to believe in all that to be happier. It’s mentally draining because your deluding yourself. It holds you back. For a bit you feel connected but then you remember that gap and you fall a little bit into a hole of thinking that nothing matters because you can’t put faith into something you thought you could. But you it just cant feel right to try and put faith in something just so you feel better about life when there’s the other part of you that has learned the atheists side. I still have a hard time letting go because sometimes I can have the spiritual backup to motivate me to do good, but it can never be an automatic part of my life because I don’t know how devout I should be. Never got that part. So you just gotta choose to choose eventually to let go and walk through life without it even coming up again. It will but you can entertain the idea any further. You gotta commit to believing there is something, but you’ll never know for sure. The way I mention things are out of order from the lyrics but youll know where to put them
i don't know that it's necessarily about a romantic relationship. i think it could also be taken as a relationship with god, one that has fallen apart. i felt the same way when i fell out of the christian faith -- sometimes i wanted to go back to that blind faith, blind ignorance, just because it was comforting. but i also feel like i lost some time while i was a christian.
anyway, that's just what i got out of it.
@render I feel that with my Native American religion. I’d love to have what my other family have but they abandoned me and didn’t teach me enough about it. I got enough out of it, the only people who were supposed to sponsor me and could are hurtful, neglectful, all because of something I couldn’t control. Anyways, it’s just a distraction to try and force myself to believe in that stuff because it didn’t come as naturally fulfilling as it did to them to look up to such a higher power. It’s just a stupid waste of my time to...
@render I feel that with my Native American religion. I’d love to have what my other family have but they abandoned me and didn’t teach me enough about it. I got enough out of it, the only people who were supposed to sponsor me and could are hurtful, neglectful, all because of something I couldn’t control. Anyways, it’s just a distraction to try and force myself to believe in that stuff because it didn’t come as naturally fulfilling as it did to them to look up to such a higher power. It’s just a stupid waste of my time to try to convince myself i need to believe in all that to be happier. It’s mentally draining because your deluding yourself. It holds you back. For a bit you feel connected but then you remember that gap and you fall a little bit into a hole of thinking that nothing matters because you can’t put faith into something you thought you could. But you it just cant feel right to try and put faith in something just so you feel better about life when there’s the other part of you that has learned the atheists side. I still have a hard time letting go because sometimes I can have the spiritual backup to motivate me to do good, but it can never be an automatic part of my life because I don’t know how devout I should be. Never got that part. So you just gotta choose to choose eventually to let go and walk through life without it even coming up again. It will but you can entertain the idea any further. You gotta commit to believing there is something, but you’ll never know for sure. The way I mention things are out of order from the lyrics but youll know where to put them
@render I feel that with my Native American religion. I’d love to have what my other family have but they abandoned me and didn’t teach me enough about it. I got enough out of it, the only people who were supposed to sponsor me and could are hurtful, neglectful, all because of something I couldn’t control. Anyways, it’s just a distraction to try and force myself to believe in that stuff because it didn’t come as naturally fulfilling as it did to them to look up to such a higher power. It’s just a stupid waste of my time to...
@render I feel that with my Native American religion. I’d love to have what my other family have but they abandoned me and didn’t teach me enough about it. I got enough out of it, the only people who were supposed to sponsor me and could are hurtful, neglectful, all because of something I couldn’t control. Anyways, it’s just a distraction to try and force myself to believe in that stuff because it didn’t come as naturally fulfilling as it did to them to look up to such a higher power. It’s just a stupid waste of my time to try to convince myself i need to believe in all that to be happier. It’s mentally draining because your deluding yourself. It holds you back. For a bit you feel connected but then you remember that gap and you fall a little bit into a hole of thinking that nothing matters because you can’t put faith into something you thought you could. But you it just cant feel right to try and put faith in something just so you feel better about life when there’s the other part of you that has learned the atheists side. I still have a hard time letting go because sometimes I can have the spiritual backup to motivate me to do good, but it can never be an automatic part of my life because I don’t know how devout I should be. Never got that part. So you just gotta choose to choose eventually to let go and walk through life without it even coming up again. It will but you can entertain the idea any further. You gotta commit to believing there is something, but you’ll never know for sure. The way I mention things are out of order from the lyrics but youll know where to put them