Avoiding death? No way.
What I got from this, even the way he's singing it, he's ready to die. It sounds to me like he's only just going through empty motions right now, waiting for the right time to kill himself. And this one girl who he once loved is making it really hard for him, because she's the only thing that's standing between him and suicide. And when it comes to that, he can't decide which he wants more.
Avoiding death? No way. What I got from this, even the way he's singing it, he's ready to die. It sounds to me like he's only just going through empty motions right now, waiting for the right time to kill himself. And this one girl who he once loved is making it really hard for him, because she's the only thing that's standing between him and suicide. And when it comes to that, he can't decide which he wants more.