I think this is about a guy who doesn't think his life can get better, so there isn't any use hoping for something better to happen "wait for a gorgeous disaster to happen, because nothing fucking matters anymore and I can't wish anymore"
and he talks about how he seems to fail the people in his life, and he wishes things could be better for him, "I wish I was amazing, but it's fading" yeah.
I think this is about a guy who doesn't think his life can get better, so there isn't any use hoping for something better to happen "wait for a gorgeous disaster to happen, because nothing fucking matters anymore and I can't wish anymore" and he talks about how he seems to fail the people in his life, and he wishes things could be better for him, "I wish I was amazing, but it's fading" yeah.
I love this, so much emotion, it's great.
also, I'll have to third BoysWithAsterisks.