"I found my fickle friend
out in the alley way
He said, You don't look so good.
I said, Hey doc, that's great.
You started practicing?
I never got the note.
So let's shake and trade
and be on our way.
Let's go, go, go.
So here we are again,
inside your neon shrine,
sharing a chopping block
beneath embarassed light
that tries to hide from us
it tucks itself away.
So we both grab hold
and say no you don't.
Just stay, just stay.
The morning's hot and harsh,
my notebook fills itself.
The words come thick with sweat,
it feels like someone else
is writing all of this,
someone I just can't believe.
when I mop my brow,
set my pen back down,
it's still me, still me.
And I'm grabbing at a feeling now
that I can't ever name.
Some sign post to remind me
how I wanted things this way.
And she says, 'it's pretty
but you hate yourself,
I can hear it clear as day.'
And I say, 'when i sing like this,
it sounds worse than it is.
I'm okay, okay.
I'm okay, okay.
Just stay, just stay.'
the first verse is a drug deal
second verse they're doing the drugs
the third is the next next day he feels beside himself and not himself as he writes of the past night(s)
4th verse he plays the song for a girl and she thinks hes depressed but really he wants his life that way
The "just stay just stay" in the first verse references to the feeling that he enjoys when he is on the drugs he bought (possibly coke because of the chopping block). Once the feeling fades he feels even better around the girl. He wants her to stay. Sadly, the feeling he gets around her may last just as short a time as the high he wanted to remain. Especially if she looks at him as hating himself...
The "just stay just stay" in the first verse references to the feeling that he enjoys when he is on the drugs he bought (possibly coke because of the chopping block). Once the feeling fades he feels even better around the girl. He wants her to stay. Sadly, the feeling he gets around her may last just as short a time as the high he wanted to remain. Especially if she looks at him as hating himself...
first verse, he refers to his friend/dealer as being a doctor, which is ironic. he's being sarcastic by asking 'you started practicing? i never got the note' like, his dealer should be the last person to comment on his condition and the way he's living his life. but his friend supplies him with drugs, and then kevin self medicates with said drugs, trying to find something that will last and maybe balance his brain.
first verse, he refers to his friend/dealer as being a doctor, which is ironic. he's being sarcastic by asking 'you started practicing? i never got the note' like, his dealer should be the last person to comment on his condition and the way he's living his life. but his friend supplies him with drugs, and then kevin self medicates with said drugs, trying to find something that will last and maybe balance his brain.
So here we are again,
inside your neon shrine, (neon shrine= tripping/rolling/drug room. usually painted...
So here we are again,
inside your neon shrine, (neon shrine= tripping/rolling/drug room. usually painted with neon black light paint, black lights turned on. its like flying through space when you're high)
sharing a chopping block (chopping block= where they prepare the drugs)
beneath embarassed light
that tries to hide from us
it tucks itself away. (the day passed by quickly when they get fucked up, so maybe its talking about the sun being 'shy'?)
So we both grab hold
and say no you don't.
(holding onto the 'light', and the feelings that the drugs give them)
Just stay, just stay.
the last verse is his female friend/girlfriend reading new lyrics he wrote, hence the "And she said, it's pretty, but you hate yourself, I can hear it clear as day."
to which he reponds with "when i sing like this, it sounds worse than it is. I'm okay, okay"
sounds to me like he doesn't know himself, he doesn't know how to be truly happy, so he's doing the only thing he knows how to do; chase temporary highs.
the album version is:
"I found my fickle friend out in the alley way He said, You don't look so good. I said, Hey doc, that's great. You started practicing? I never got the note. So let's shake and trade and be on our way. Let's go, go, go.
So here we are again, inside your neon shrine, sharing a chopping block beneath embarassed light that tries to hide from us it tucks itself away. So we both grab hold and say no you don't. Just stay, just stay.
The morning's hot and harsh, my notebook fills itself. The words come thick with sweat, it feels like someone else is writing all of this, someone I just can't believe. when I mop my brow, set my pen back down, it's still me, still me.
And I'm grabbing at a feeling now that I can't ever name. Some sign post to remind me how I wanted things this way.
And she says, 'it's pretty but you hate yourself, I can hear it clear as day.' And I say, 'when i sing like this, it sounds worse than it is. I'm okay, okay. I'm okay, okay. Just stay, just stay.'
the first verse is a drug deal second verse they're doing the drugs the third is the next next day he feels beside himself and not himself as he writes of the past night(s) 4th verse he plays the song for a girl and she thinks hes depressed but really he wants his life that way
The "just stay just stay" in the first verse references to the feeling that he enjoys when he is on the drugs he bought (possibly coke because of the chopping block). Once the feeling fades he feels even better around the girl. He wants her to stay. Sadly, the feeling he gets around her may last just as short a time as the high he wanted to remain. Especially if she looks at him as hating himself...
The "just stay just stay" in the first verse references to the feeling that he enjoys when he is on the drugs he bought (possibly coke because of the chopping block). Once the feeling fades he feels even better around the girl. He wants her to stay. Sadly, the feeling he gets around her may last just as short a time as the high he wanted to remain. Especially if she looks at him as hating himself...
i agree with both of you :)
i agree with both of you :)
but to be more specific:
but to be more specific:
first verse, he refers to his friend/dealer as being a doctor, which is ironic. he's being sarcastic by asking 'you started practicing? i never got the note' like, his dealer should be the last person to comment on his condition and the way he's living his life. but his friend supplies him with drugs, and then kevin self medicates with said drugs, trying to find something that will last and maybe balance his brain.
first verse, he refers to his friend/dealer as being a doctor, which is ironic. he's being sarcastic by asking 'you started practicing? i never got the note' like, his dealer should be the last person to comment on his condition and the way he's living his life. but his friend supplies him with drugs, and then kevin self medicates with said drugs, trying to find something that will last and maybe balance his brain.
So here we are again, inside your neon shrine, (neon shrine= tripping/rolling/drug room. usually painted...
So here we are again, inside your neon shrine, (neon shrine= tripping/rolling/drug room. usually painted with neon black light paint, black lights turned on. its like flying through space when you're high) sharing a chopping block (chopping block= where they prepare the drugs) beneath embarassed light that tries to hide from us it tucks itself away. (the day passed by quickly when they get fucked up, so maybe its talking about the sun being 'shy'?) So we both grab hold and say no you don't. (holding onto the 'light', and the feelings that the drugs give them) Just stay, just stay.
the last verse is his female friend/girlfriend reading new lyrics he wrote, hence the "And she said, it's pretty, but you hate yourself, I can hear it clear as day." to which he reponds with "when i sing like this, it sounds worse than it is. I'm okay, okay"
sounds to me like he doesn't know himself, he doesn't know how to be truly happy, so he's doing the only thing he knows how to do; chase temporary highs.