abnegation: the denial / rejection of a belief
Cecity: the state of being blind or lacking sight
refract: To bend or change direction
begrudge: envy: be envious of; set one's heart on
amenity: A non-essential enhancement to property that adds value.
malnutriated: not a word. Maybe they meant malnutritioned.
malevolent: wishing evil to others
defray: to bear the expenses of
bewalling: not a word. Maybe they meant bewailing.
demise: death, an end of something
penury: a state of extreme poverty or destitution
Overall, the song seems to be about a drug addition.
“Whitecoated freaks” refers to medical professionals that diagnose his mind, maybe psychiatrists. “Sweet needle of salvation” has obvious implications to an addiction.
The first part of this song comes off in a sort of self-confident, retaliating tone of “I don’t need you, this is who and what I am and I am okay with that.”
The second part of the song seems to switch gears, beginning with “Ripping my dignity way”...”Identity is leaking out”...”REALIZATION is catching up on me.” He mentions this craving as eating away at his soul, and that he feels trapped within himself. “Defraying my own lies” seems to mean, in a sense, “reaping what I have sown” by the things I have believed. He senses a feeling of deep, internal poverty. “Give me something to live for”...”bring me back from my purgatory of obsessions” seems to be a call for help.
In the life of an addict, the first step in recovery is admitting that one has a problem. In the world of addiction, there is a place called “Rock Bottom” that one must arrive at before he is able to admit an addiction. It is a place where he comes face to face with the reality of his need for this thing, the damage this thing is doing to him / others, and his inability to stop. I’m not assuming any member of Meshuggah is an addict, but if they were, this song sure sounds like one of those “Rock Bottom”
abnegation: the denial / rejection of a belief Cecity: the state of being blind or lacking sight refract: To bend or change direction begrudge: envy: be envious of; set one's heart on amenity: A non-essential enhancement to property that adds value. malnutriated: not a word. Maybe they meant malnutritioned. malevolent: wishing evil to others defray: to bear the expenses of bewalling: not a word. Maybe they meant bewailing. demise: death, an end of something penury: a state of extreme poverty or destitution
Overall, the song seems to be about a drug addition.
“Whitecoated freaks” refers to medical professionals that diagnose his mind, maybe psychiatrists. “Sweet needle of salvation” has obvious implications to an addiction.
The first part of this song comes off in a sort of self-confident, retaliating tone of “I don’t need you, this is who and what I am and I am okay with that.”
The second part of the song seems to switch gears, beginning with “Ripping my dignity way”...”Identity is leaking out”...”REALIZATION is catching up on me.” He mentions this craving as eating away at his soul, and that he feels trapped within himself. “Defraying my own lies” seems to mean, in a sense, “reaping what I have sown” by the things I have believed. He senses a feeling of deep, internal poverty. “Give me something to live for”...”bring me back from my purgatory of obsessions” seems to be a call for help.
In the life of an addict, the first step in recovery is admitting that one has a problem. In the world of addiction, there is a place called “Rock Bottom” that one must arrive at before he is able to admit an addiction. It is a place where he comes face to face with the reality of his need for this thing, the damage this thing is doing to him / others, and his inability to stop. I’m not assuming any member of Meshuggah is an addict, but if they were, this song sure sounds like one of those “Rock Bottom”