Perhaps not. The last four lines don't make sense to me.
For the rest, my interpretation is simply that this is about a girl who is absolutely in love with a guy who simply uses her for sex. She realizes this, but can't admit it to herself.
The 'of your deformed penis' is what throws me off. Perhaps it is a reference to him not caring; that he doesn't even have an erection?
Perhaps not. The last four lines don't make sense to me.
For the rest, my interpretation is simply that this is about a girl who is absolutely in love with a guy who simply uses her for sex. She realizes this, but can't admit it to herself.
The 'of your deformed penis' is what throws me off. Perhaps it is a reference to him not caring; that he doesn't even have an erection?