Over two years later, this song has again found its way into defining my problematic love life. Same girl. We've gone through so much since the first time I posted. I have loved her intensely, and she has become a part of everything that I am and everything that I strive to become. Within the last month, however, she broke it off. It didn't register in my brain as a possibility, let alone a reality, but she has already moved on to another guy. And I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to say I'm just a friend.
She is lying to herself, and she is cheating us both out of what we shared. I know that she still loves me, but she's afraid of the pain that we have had to endure due to the distance. And she's doing her best to try to forget the connection and the feelings that accompany our togetherness. I understand exactly why this is happening, and I don't want to look away. I don't want to be the one denied.
Over two years later, this song has again found its way into defining my problematic love life. Same girl. We've gone through so much since the first time I posted. I have loved her intensely, and she has become a part of everything that I am and everything that I strive to become. Within the last month, however, she broke it off. It didn't register in my brain as a possibility, let alone a reality, but she has already moved on to another guy. And I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to say I'm just a friend.
She is lying to herself, and she is cheating us both out of what we shared. I know that she still loves me, but she's afraid of the pain that we have had to endure due to the distance. And she's doing her best to try to forget the connection and the feelings that accompany our togetherness. I understand exactly why this is happening, and I don't want to look away. I don't want to be the one denied.
I am a shadow of myself without her.