I think he is going through a life crises (duh!). It seemed like this problem just crept upto him like he discribes but even worse then he thought was going to happen but he saw it coming before it happen but did nothing to stop it to happen becuase he says "Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear." and also saying that "I always knew. I always saw it coming."
Most likely he did something to someone. Becuase he says "I am the once embraced abandoned one." Now he wants god to fix everything that he did. But it seems like God is doing nothing becuase he says "I was burnt, by the sun" By that he feels abandoned by God becuase their is no reply back from heaven.
I think he is going through a life crises (duh!). It seemed like this problem just crept upto him like he discribes but even worse then he thought was going to happen but he saw it coming before it happen but did nothing to stop it to happen becuase he says "Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear." and also saying that "I always knew. I always saw it coming." Most likely he did something to someone. Becuase he says "I am the once embraced abandoned one." Now he wants god to fix everything that he did. But it seems like God is doing nothing becuase he says "I was burnt, by the sun" By that he feels abandoned by God becuase their is no reply back from heaven.