This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I see the way you look
When I throw my words at you
I seem to have you hooked
But then everything is through
How can I make things right
How can I make things better
I want you to shine bright
I want us to be together
I can't find, can't find a remedy
Just try and hold on and I'll let you free
Can't fight the feelings that come over me
Once again I'm left in burning debris
Left alone all by myself
Left alone to rot away
Memories are stored up on a shelf
You'll never know how much my problems weigh
Stay out of my life
Stay out of my life
Stay out of my life
I don't need you anymore
I don't want to feel this way
I don't want what we had before
To be treated like radioactive decay
I'm your pile of junk in which you use
I'm your fear and your anger you abuse
I'm the cause of all your dismay
I'm the one who drove you away
From me
Stuck up, full blown vexation
Drew me back with vibrant trepidation
All I wanted was an explanation
But gave up, too much frustration
Don't wanna find, wanna find a remedy
Just let go so I can be free
Can't fight the feelings that come over me
Once again I'm left in burning debris
My eyes swell with anger
My whole body becomes numb
I try to find a reason
This situation is too dumb
Stay out of my life
Stay out of my life
Stay out of my life
I don't need you
When I throw my words at you
I seem to have you hooked
But then everything is through
How can I make things right
How can I make things better
I want you to shine bright
I want us to be together
I can't find, can't find a remedy
Just try and hold on and I'll let you free
Can't fight the feelings that come over me
Once again I'm left in burning debris
Left alone all by myself
Left alone to rot away
Memories are stored up on a shelf
You'll never know how much my problems weigh
Stay out of my life
Stay out of my life
Stay out of my life
I don't need you anymore
I don't want to feel this way
I don't want what we had before
To be treated like radioactive decay
I'm your pile of junk in which you use
I'm your fear and your anger you abuse
I'm the cause of all your dismay
I'm the one who drove you away
From me
Stuck up, full blown vexation
Drew me back with vibrant trepidation
All I wanted was an explanation
But gave up, too much frustration
Don't wanna find, wanna find a remedy
Just let go so I can be free
Can't fight the feelings that come over me
Once again I'm left in burning debris
My eyes swell with anger
My whole body becomes numb
I try to find a reason
This situation is too dumb
Stay out of my life
Stay out of my life
Stay out of my life
I don't need you
Lyrics submitted by Conker
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