This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Today the sun burned away at my face and i just let it burn. Another angel
turned her back on me. She folded her wings and hung her head. God you
gave me this heart but I was wondering if I could trade it in. I wail and I weep
for I can not sleep for I stare at the ghosts of my own design. Driving past the
quiet steeples in the night. I harbor these tears in my eyes and wonder of the
day this came upon me. She thinks she is hearing sounds in the night and I am
fighting just to sleep. And I wail and I weep. The bells will ring in the steeple
in the morning. And I'm just now trying to find myself. Singing the words to
create acceptance were never my good intentions. And now I've only a house
full of regrets. Shatter the glass of my eye. And I will come to see the blinding
darkness. And I've lost sight of all that is real. For I sit here alone. I write a
novel of my own. And there are no happy endings in this tradgedy. Sometimes
I am almost content in my sorrow. And it makes my eyelids hang low. My ship
is sailing to the seas. So wave and blow your kisses. 'Cause I'm not sure I'll
be home anytime soon. I've set out to fail the world. I've set out to fail myself.
I will dream the dreamers lie that everything is okay. When everything isn't
okay. He says my burden is also his but I don't want to put this on him. Stare
up at steeples lost in the night. I find that I'm lost. And now I've only a house
full of regrets. And as the wind blows it takes with it all the memories. And as
the breeze blows I turn my eyes to the skies and hope for hope that this will
soon come to pass.
turned her back on me. She folded her wings and hung her head. God you
gave me this heart but I was wondering if I could trade it in. I wail and I weep
for I can not sleep for I stare at the ghosts of my own design. Driving past the
quiet steeples in the night. I harbor these tears in my eyes and wonder of the
day this came upon me. She thinks she is hearing sounds in the night and I am
fighting just to sleep. And I wail and I weep. The bells will ring in the steeple
in the morning. And I'm just now trying to find myself. Singing the words to
create acceptance were never my good intentions. And now I've only a house
full of regrets. Shatter the glass of my eye. And I will come to see the blinding
darkness. And I've lost sight of all that is real. For I sit here alone. I write a
novel of my own. And there are no happy endings in this tradgedy. Sometimes
I am almost content in my sorrow. And it makes my eyelids hang low. My ship
is sailing to the seas. So wave and blow your kisses. 'Cause I'm not sure I'll
be home anytime soon. I've set out to fail the world. I've set out to fail myself.
I will dream the dreamers lie that everything is okay. When everything isn't
okay. He says my burden is also his but I don't want to put this on him. Stare
up at steeples lost in the night. I find that I'm lost. And now I've only a house
full of regrets. And as the wind blows it takes with it all the memories. And as
the breeze blows I turn my eyes to the skies and hope for hope that this will
soon come to pass.
Lyrics submitted by youmaysayimadreamer
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