This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
If only I was taller
If I had a million dollars
Maybe then you'd be with me
If only I was eighteen
And had the courage
Of the A-Team
Maybe then you'd be with me
But for now I'll have to dream
About your smile 'cause you're not
Here and all I want to say is
That I really miss you
If I could surf a little better
If I had Sumner's sweater
Maybe then you'd be with me
If only I had more time
If I had Mike Ness' hairline
Then you'd want to be with me
If only you weren't so fine
If only I wasn't so blind
I'd find a way
To make you stay
Then maybe I'd see you
If I woke up
With all these things
Would it even change your feelings
None of that is even me
But for now I'll have to
Wait another week
To see your face and all I want to say is
That I really miss you
If I had a million dollars
Maybe then you'd be with me
If only I was eighteen
And had the courage
Of the A-Team
Maybe then you'd be with me
But for now I'll have to dream
About your smile 'cause you're not
Here and all I want to say is
That I really miss you
If I could surf a little better
If I had Sumner's sweater
Maybe then you'd be with me
If only I had more time
If I had Mike Ness' hairline
Then you'd want to be with me
If only you weren't so fine
If only I wasn't so blind
I'd find a way
To make you stay
Then maybe I'd see you
If I woke up
With all these things
Would it even change your feelings
None of that is even me
But for now I'll have to
Wait another week
To see your face and all I want to say is
That I really miss you
Lyrics submitted by ScreamingInfidelity
If Only Lyrics as written by Johnny Storm
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
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sounds more like the get up kids
i love "but for now i'll have to dream about your smile cause you're not here and all i want to say is that i really miss you"
If a girl wanted to be with me because I had hair like Mike Ness, then shoot me in the face.
::drool:: Golden fingers... It's a good song. Catchy, and things.
Good, catchy song, and goldfinger sounds nothing like The Get Up Kids in my opinion.
One of my favorite Goldfinger songs....so true!!!!! its like whatifs? like what would make the person be with you? and then wondering if all those things would even change anything - if it would make them want you at all. its about wanting someone so bad it hurts...but kinna deep down knowing you can't have htem, even if you were a million differnet things. its a good song, i love it , its catchy and means alot. to me anywayz.
muah i_love_punk_rock i couldnta said it better..well obviously, im not good with words, but that's okay.deep down you know you can't have them even if you did change.even though you want them so so bad.errr....:(
I really like one of the girls I know, but I can't have her because she's already got a boyfriend, so it doesn't matter what I change about myself...
Sumner's sweater? I always thought it was "some nerd's sweater". what's Sumner's sweater?
i would have to shoot myself if i had sumner's sweater and mike ness' hairline... oh man, they have their priorities messed up, but i do agree that ted nugent should go away forever