This song is about suicide as a solution to the problem that one does not feel accepted (which is VERY common for people suffering from a depression):
I am my own parasite (He is self-sufficient in some way, in what way? one can ask...) I don't need a host to live (However parasites do need a host to live, that is the definition of the word... hence he doesnt need to live. He is self-sufficient to take his own life) We feed off of each other (I think this is a general criticism of the human nature and/or culture, in which cobain felt outside of or denied access to. Humans are each others parasites, they feed on each other) We can share our endorphins (describes the fundamental human drive, sex, but does it in a technically and cold way. Theres no love, just egoistic "parasite-love")
The first verse gives a reason to commit suicide, and indicates that he is allowed to do so, as he is himself.
Doll steak! Test meat! (Notice that the word are put together wrongly: "Test doll" and "meat steak" would make more sence. If that assumption is correct, it would seme that someone is testing meat, and eating plastic, instead of the doing the opposite (right) way. "Someone" I think is "the others", those who live an "evil" life, the establishment (dont read it as something childish skate/punk rebelion, but rather as the word "culture") Meat is often used as something human, while plastic is something fake or artificial. Instead of living as humans, the "normal people" are living as "plastic-digesters" aka. fakes, and they are destroying living meat in "crash testes". I do not believe the crash-test-thing should be taken too seriously.)
Look on the bright side is suicide (As a solution to all this, one can escape it, but only through suicide) Lost eyesight I'm on your side (This is a hard one, but I believe that it is either is Cobain saying: "im on your side, but you cant see it" or: that someone is saying to Cobain: "im on your side" and Cobain replies "But you have lost your eyesight" = you cant see it from my angle/point-of-view.) Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing (An angel with broken wings = no hope, in my opnion) Lack of iron and/or sleeping (...is medical reasons for depression)
I own my own pet virus I get to pet and name her Her milk is my shit My shit is her milk (there's some self-recognition here (as far as I see): He owns his own desructor, the virus, in which he can put his guilt and blame, it feeds on his shit, and he is the one who names it. Even though he have criticized and placed the guilt outside himself, he do know that the shit comes from himself)
im very uncertain about the outro part
Protector of the kennel (to protect something that doesnt need protection, or something about keeping the hounds locked in?) Ecto-plasma, Ecto-skeletal (ecto-plasma is that thing ghosts are made of, ecto-skeletal is somewhat more concrete... maybe its something about he doesnt care whether he becomes a ghost or just dies... after-life contra nothingness) Obituary birthday (it could be some religious reincarnation thing, however I do recall that Cobain wasnt religious according to himself. I believe its something about that the death can be good or a happy thing) Your scent is still here in my place of recovery! (nowhere he is free from what pains him, even not in his place of recovery)
This is definitely one of Nirvana's most disturbing AND disturbed songs in their ballpark, and it shows. One of Cobain's main talents was to sound like a cornered, ferocious animal at one moment, and then sound like a fragile, scared child in another. Excellent.
For me personally, I think this has a very similar lyrical theme to the song "Closer" by Nine Inch Nails. It describes a relationship that is only used for receiving pleasure for both parties involved in the act. Both of the two people in the song KNOW they are using eachother for sex, as they can find no way out of misery other than having hard, animalistic sex. For them, the lovey dovey shit doesn't matter - its the both of them letting out all their pent up aggression by fucking. It could also be about drug use or suicide, but I'm not sure.
well I think, this is about depression and flyrting with suicide
This album (in utero) was one of the most returned albums in seattle after it came out. Everyone thought it would be all "heart shaped box" and "all apoligies". But it's songs like this that make this album kick ass. He must have thought that nevermind was a bit too pop-like so he put songs like this. This song is far more "grunge" than "Smells..." was.
@egb Wow, In Seattle? This album was a fuck you to the pop punk vibe (although it could get really intense still, on Nevermind). Heard Soundgarden in the 80's? The band that screwed grunge (a blend of metal, punk and stoner rock) to me is Pearl Jam, first album in 1990, and it's not got one song that's even harder hitting than Lounge Act (which is awesome, and when Kurt starts screaming it gets even better).
@egb Wow, In Seattle? This album was a fuck you to the pop punk vibe (although it could get really intense still, on Nevermind). Heard Soundgarden in the 80's? The band that screwed grunge (a blend of metal, punk and stoner rock) to me is Pearl Jam, first album in 1990, and it's not got one song that's even harder hitting than Lounge Act (which is awesome, and when Kurt starts screaming it gets even better).
@egb I Doll is about Hole song , "Doll Parts". Just my gut tells me he was working on that LP as well, as this one. This is what Curt wanted it to be, a great, FUCKING SONG!
@egb I Doll is about Hole song , "Doll Parts". Just my gut tells me he was working on that LP as well, as this one. This is what Curt wanted it to be, a great, FUCKING SONG!
preeetty sure the "doll steak, test me" is actually "don't stare, test me" clearly the song is about him contemplating suicide, and prior knowledge of kurt says he hated being famous. maybe these lines are saying "if you don't piss off, I'm gonna blow a fuse". hope i helped
the second verse is "I own my own pet virus" not "i won my own pet virus" and yes, it is a big difference.
ok, anyway I like the lyrics "I am my own parasite" Kurt was his own worst enemy, and these lyrics show that he was aware of this. Very insightfull he was. However dead he now is. x
Doll steak, test meat - Is kurt saying how useless the human race is. Basically summing us all up as useless, brainless meat. To me, the song is about suicide and rebirth into a utopian state.
"Obituary birthday" is a reference to reincarnation (death, rebirth). See what I wrote about "Heart-Shaped Box."
does anyone else notice that before the last time he sings "test meat" he laughs??
i think it says that hes not taking the ideo of killing himself seriously.
Kurt loved ridiculing the idea of him being depressed and suicidal. He was quite good at it, too, and it was hilarious right up until he shot himself in the face.
Kurt loved ridiculing the idea of him being depressed and suicidal. He was quite good at it, too, and it was hilarious right up until he shot himself in the face.
@phatslug Yep, always liked it, and when they recorded In Utero, Kurt was smoking a lot of weed with Dave. By that time Krist was Straight Edge (see the SSD shirt on the Loud! Live! "New Years" concert where 5-6 songs are missing if you got the regular version. Nirvana always played 20+ songs live..
@phatslug Yep, always liked it, and when they recorded In Utero, Kurt was smoking a lot of weed with Dave. By that time Krist was Straight Edge (see the SSD shirt on the Loud! Live! "New Years" concert where 5-6 songs are missing if you got the regular version. Nirvana always played 20+ songs live..