I am my own parasite
I don't need a host to live
We feed off of each other
We can share our endorphns
Doll steak
Test meat
Look on the bright side, suicide
Lost eyesight, I'm on your side
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
Lack of iron and or sleeping
I won my own pet virus
I get to pet and name her
Her milk is my shit
My shit is her milk
Test meat
Doll steak
Look on the bright side, suicide
Lost eyesight, I'm on your side
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
Lack of iron and or sleeping
Doll steak
Test meat
Look on the bright side, suicide
Lost eyesight, I'm on your side
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
Lack of iron and or sleeping
Protector of the kennel
Ecto-plasma, ecto-skeletal
Obituary birthday
Your scent is still here in my place of recovery
I don't need a host to live
We feed off of each other
We can share our endorphns
Doll steak
Test meat
Look on the bright side, suicide
Lost eyesight, I'm on your side
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
Lack of iron and or sleeping
I won my own pet virus
I get to pet and name her
Her milk is my shit
My shit is her milk
Test meat
Doll steak
Look on the bright side, suicide
Lost eyesight, I'm on your side
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
Lack of iron and or sleeping
Doll steak
Test meat
Look on the bright side, suicide
Lost eyesight, I'm on your side
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
Lack of iron and or sleeping
Protector of the kennel
Ecto-plasma, ecto-skeletal
Obituary birthday
Your scent is still here in my place of recovery
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I am my own parasite
(He is self-sufficient in some way, in what way? one
can ask...)
I don't need a host to live
(However parasites do need a host to live, that is the definition of the word... hence he doesnt need to live. He is self-sufficient to take his own life)
We feed off of each other
(I think this is a general criticism of the human nature and/or culture, in which cobain felt outside of or denied access to. Humans are each others parasites, they feed on each other)
We can share our endorphins
(describes the fundamental human drive, sex, but does it in a technically and cold way. Theres no love, just egoistic "parasite-love")
The first verse gives a reason to commit suicide, and indicates that he is allowed to do so, as he is himself.
Doll steak!
Test meat!
(Notice that the word are put together wrongly: "Test doll" and "meat steak" would make more sence. If that assumption is correct, it would seme that someone is testing meat, and eating plastic, instead of the doing the opposite (right) way. "Someone" I think is "the others", those who live an "evil" life, the establishment (dont read it as something childish skate/punk rebelion, but rather as the word "culture")
Meat is often used as something human, while plastic is something fake or artificial.
Instead of living as humans, the "normal people" are living as "plastic-digesters" aka. fakes, and they are destroying living meat in "crash testes". I do not believe the crash-test-thing should be taken too seriously.)
Look on the bright side is suicide
(As a solution to all this, one can escape it, but only through suicide)
Lost eyesight I'm on your side
(This is a hard one, but I believe that it is either is Cobain saying: "im on your side, but you cant see it" or: that someone is saying to Cobain: "im on your side" and Cobain replies "But you have lost your eyesight" = you cant see it from my angle/point-of-view.)
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
(An angel with broken wings = no hope, in my opnion)
Lack of iron and/or sleeping
(...is medical reasons for depression)
I own my own pet virus
I get to pet and name her
Her milk is my shit
My shit is her milk
(there's some self-recognition here (as far as I see): He owns his own desructor, the virus, in which he can put his guilt and blame, it feeds on his shit, and he is the one who names it. Even though he have criticized and placed the guilt outside himself, he do know that the shit comes from himself)
im very uncertain about the outro part
Protector of the kennel
(to protect something that doesnt need protection, or something about keeping the hounds locked in?)
Ecto-plasma, Ecto-skeletal
(ecto-plasma is that thing ghosts are made of, ecto-skeletal is somewhat more concrete... maybe its something about he doesnt care whether he becomes a ghost or just dies... after-life contra nothingness)
Obituary birthday
(it could be some religious reincarnation thing, however I do recall that Cobain wasnt religious according to himself. I believe its something about that the death can be good or a happy thing)
Your scent is still here in my place of recovery!
(nowhere he is free from what pains him, even not in his place of recovery)
For me personally, I think this has a very similar lyrical theme to the song "Closer" by Nine Inch Nails. It describes a relationship that is only used for receiving pleasure for both parties involved in the act. Both of the two people in the song KNOW they are using eachother for sex, as they can find no way out of misery other than having hard, animalistic sex. For them, the lovey dovey shit doesn't matter - its the both of them letting out all their pent up aggression by fucking. It could also be about drug use or suicide, but I'm not sure.
Kurt was his own worst enemy, and these lyrics show that he was aware of this. Very insightfull he was. However dead he now is. x
To me, the song is about suicide and rebirth into a utopian state.
i think it says that hes not taking the ideo of killing himself seriously.