Starting Over / Slow Down

I was fighting nothing.
You’re so God damn impossible, it hurts.
I fall on the purpose and all my worth,
I’m at my worst now.
I was starting over,
I walk through the city and come undone.
I count on the seasons to fill me up;
They fill me up now.
And what if I need what I won’t share?
What if I run?
Will you meet me out there?
Will you meet me out there?
And what if I need what I won’t share?
What if I run?
Will you meet me out there?
Will you meet me out there?
Now I’m six years older,
I walk past the feelings of giving up.
Spent days all alone out in Central Park;
it’s like I’m getting closer now,
But I’m still hanging over.
Still cut from the plight of a former love;
I swear that I needed it all.
I leave everyday with my faults.
And what if I need what I won’t share?
What if I run?
Will you meet me out there?
Will you meet me out there?
And what if I need what I won’t share?
What if I run?
Will you meet me out there?
Will you meet me out there?
Run away, I wanna run away.
A feeling that I couldn’t stop;
The seasons of fear that I’m gone.
Maybe I fucked it all
Run away, I wanna run away.
A feeling that I couldn’t stop;
The seasons of fear that I’m gone.
Maybe I fucked it all this time.
I breathe in the open air;
All of my words will run out.
All of my nightmares are heavy,
I scatter them out on the ground.
You can see through my broken stare,
Lost in the color of sound.
Even if I wasn’t ready, the silence is coming now.
I feel the weight of it, I feel them all.
I see the long road winding down.
I feel the pain in it, I feel it all.
I see it almost dying now.
And I slow down, I am so so down.